sexta-feira, 8 de dezembro de 2017

How is that?

How is a dad that doesn’t come to your mother funeral and appear only 20 days after and say: - your took advantage of all the men she had to my grandma, although he never payed alimony or even had a job at the time while my mom worked in 3 places? Radio, tv and a store?

all my friends at the time noticed and said between them: we gonna have take care of her the dad did not show up is this serious, the dad did nor show up at the cemetery? the flight from Rio is only 40min and plus when his coisins Maria Lucia and Maria Beatriz died he went to.

Daphne is so rebellious so untamed, bla bla bla, really? Why is it so? He did not came to hug and comfort me, to hold my hand and say: Everything is gonna be alright I am here. Instead of it, he considered he was free from the alimony as mom died would never be charged.

He says he is not that kind of person.. what da fuck kind of person he is then? A fucking asshole! Which his mother still greases his hair like he was a marvelous even doing nothing to help anyone. Everyone covers him up, cheers him. He is rich asshole

*Asshole in Portuguese means babaca. Just in case he gets lost in translation and understand it literally.. Waterloo is not Toilet Water, ok?

quinta-feira, 23 de novembro de 2017

Instagram is a communication tool

I only posted paintings and drawings no photographs and according to the rules, nudity on paintings and drawings are OK. So this time there is no reason. Please, consider. My account is what fulfill my routine. I am a 34y old woman that lives and take care of her grandparents one is 97 and the other is 94 years old. I live with them since I was 2. I am a lesbian and I cannor have someone due to the condition of living with them. That’s my only distraction. Besides that I can travel once in a while and my aunt takes care of them she is a doctor. Without my account that I dedicate to female art I have no other distractions or social media. I’m having an anxiety attack. It’s not the first time i’m deactivated but the other times I posted photographs also. This time only paintings. I am a photographer and also an art student and I don’t have a back up of the images. I’m a Madonna fan that’s my only motivation. I really love her. Please. Consider that. The human side of people, the feelings. Not just a number, an algorithm, another account in millions. Consider that, some people lean on Instagram accounts to be breath, to dream, to keep living. I want to meet people I only have access through Instagram. I rely on my account to meet them. Nowadays people rely on their accounts as it is their bank accounts. People make friends. And if you have a friend you have everything. Consider that, humanly.


It’s very humiliating and degrading depend on machine and other people that envision profits if can or cannot communicate through Instagram, which is a fucking company not a community. On a community people can opine on Instagram algorithms and few rich people take decisions.

And that’s is the 1984, the real Big Brother inspecting amd deciding for you what and how you can or cannot communicate. Pay attention 🚨

Communication is the key of Life, of Love.

Mastercard read you as algorithms and send those phishing ads cause they know you boight a house and need a new tv, new fridge.. the geolocate you and when you are in front of a store they send you an advertise! How creepy clever. And you do not consider being controlled?

 https://www.uol/economia/especiais/entrevista-uol-lideres-joao-pedro-paro-neto-mastercard.htm#prevendo-sua-proxima-compra


https://m.tecmundo.com.br/amp/redes-sociais/123954-ex-funcionario-revela-cotidiano-revisor-violencia-odio-facebook.htm


Will anyone give me an answer about my account? It’s really disturbing and I am feeling anguish. If you never experienced that is sort of am anxiety attack. Is this really necessary, there are only paintings and drawings posted on my account. Who has a problem with female nude body should get treatment. Do you feel violently attracted to paintings or sculptures pn a museum? That’s just presumptuous, deprive my account like that.

segunda-feira, 13 de novembro de 2017

Surfaced Feeling

I just remembered the day my father came to my house said I  a social parasite and that he would put me in a mental institution and sell all my properties to pay for my life there. Such a pleasant person he is. He wish he could punch my face..

some pleasant remembrances are coming to the top what for? When it’s my mom’s date of death I was in court with him he sued me and then removed the process one day before the last audience a bit ashamed cause the game wasn’t flowing to his side..

He played to the judge that he barely knew this “lady” and the judge said.. she is not a lady she is your daughter. I’m used here to deal with killers, burglars, first time I see a dad suing his own daughter without trying to fix it at home. Asshole.

Wasn’t that much I said he was promiscuous and used drugs, my opinion but I had no propfs and kinda put it on my blog. But he decided to sue me. He is an asshole and absent enormous asshole

I tried everything humanly possoble.. many times I called him and asked why you never call me to know how I feel, how I am? He said he is not like that.. bahaha! And someone who is indifferent to his own only daughter (he had no son either) is what? Is for me to think what?

My whole life he ignored me even when I was a child and my mom was still alive he had to pick me up to go to the club for 2h every Sunday I stood alone most of the time he was always w his friends or girlfriend.. He never gave me real attention, real love, real support

If I have the impression he used drugs or were promiscuous was through the exemples he showed me when I was a child. I know addicted people and they act the same. And I never experienced other fathers being like he is to me to my friends or people I met.

He like to throw at my face I am not part of his life. I am not eligible, that I am always inappropriat, inadequate, wrong. I tried all. He was never gentle, or did something for me to see me happy. To be with me. His mom used to like me but then she saw how rich he is so he is great

Rich people are never wrong.. She was always inadequate.. really since I was born? 🤔 I used to try.. then to hate.. and now I ignore most of the time but some feelings come to the surface like a vomit 🤢

quinta-feira, 5 de outubro de 2017

My life is a f*cking joke!

So last week out of 2 I spent in NY got my AirBnb cancelled and had to spend the cash I brought to eat, go to spectates and transportation on payment for my other host cash in hand cause the Korean girl looked at me and said: - You have too many bags. I had one small bag that came back as a hand bag and something like a schoolbag with my leans and lamps from my photograph gear. I had $50,00 dollars out of the $900,00 I brought in total. To spend with that with everything payed was enough. But $50,00 dollars was hilarious.

So I found out that my biological father who is very wealthy is suing my dead painter friend wich was my art mentor. See, I had a dream and he listened to me, believed on me. And I had the plan to work for him, with him. He had galleries all around the world.

Why my biological father is suing my dead beloved painter friend Fernando Vignoli??
Don’t I have reasons enough??
I loved that man as father as a mentor something my biological father never was close to that..
someone have enough money to spend on Art.. 100.000,00 but to help his daughter NAH .. f*

It’s a public process anyone can access it. He probably ordered a panel and Vignoli works were very expensive, to show off right in the middle of the worst crisis here in Brasil.

But he, my biological father, denied me a job, he was always  rude and unpleasant with me, why why a person like him get to be cool in life and I have to pass through emotionally hardways of ups and downs? He never wanted to be a dad that’s very clear but it is so unfair.. he never payed the alimony contract of 43% percent of his wages to afford my creation. It took me many many years to even a buy an used popular car. Took me two years to buy professional camera. And to remind that I take care of my two grandparents that took care of me since I was 2 years old. Don’t I deserve be happy too?

He enriched himself with the money he never gave me by LAW. He have golden watches and travel to Switzerland, Denmark, Noriega, Sweden, England, France, Spain, US, etc and I save a lot the whole year for a few days in NY.

It’s not fucking fair.
He ignores the the concept of family, father, love and care. He ignores moral, or values or he is so ignorant he denies all of that to his only child. He is peacock showing off to a sort of society people that met him along his ganacious way he is powerful and rich.

He is rich because he is an irresponsible greedy adult. He only cares about himself and no one else.

quarta-feira, 27 de setembro de 2017

What is Communication ?

I always had that question: what are the limits between intellect and communication?

what's intuition and how that really works? How to precise it? Is that part of the limit between Intellect and Communication?

Communication is an exchange of information in any kind of level, expressions, contact, emotions, intellectual, etc, between two beings

am I trying to define the ineffable? and what cannot be explained God, Love and the human Soul.

sexta-feira, 22 de setembro de 2017

Problems with AirBnb

Hi Gregg, I cannot afford going to a hotel, If I have $500,00 dollars and spend $200,00 in a hotel is not a smart way to solve my situation. So I payed informally Alvin, my first host $450,00 dollars and he gave me a huge discount cause I would not be able to afford everything with the money I had here. This money I had $500,00 left was to afford my expenses with food, transport, a concert, water, this essentials. I ordered the refund on my credit card from that Eun cancellation. What I am asking you is for some indemnity for the trouble I'm having it's already 12h trying to solve this. You work from a Company that sells a service the Company must have some responsibility over the guests that are already in a trip. I am trying to save my vacation. I made a huge effort to be here now. Saved money for one whole year. I payed insurance that unfortunately doesn't cover Airbnb cancellations. Doesn't exist an insurance for that. I cannot afford stay in NY with only $50,00 dollars that's not vacation I programmed. I am so organized that I have all receipts noted in a note book, I bought so in advance a mobile traveler number, so I have internet and a way to make phone calls. How are gonna help me?

My hostage I already payed in cash to Alvin. I need cash to afford my last week here. And I am not treating you, In asking how to save this vacation while I am on it. Because, when I arrive back, if your team do not support me here, I am gonna take the Law to solve. 

att,

Daphne Csenger

quarta-feira, 6 de setembro de 2017

What a Queen means

I was thinking that Madonna released the sexuality as a power. It is an energy some people knows how to use. She mastered it set women free.

and that's why is she gonna be the Queen for a long timeline she has causes. Behind the other artists there quite nothing just appearances.

Madonna always had a subjective intention. She know her energy and creates and dares to provoke questions while the rest are an echo.

they don't even know how to canalize their intentions.. A Queen born a Queen she was never a princess of anything she was straight up Queen.

she started modestly knowing that if she made in the of the board with her causes and intentions she would rule the world as a Queen she is.

the bottle scene on Truth or Dare, gonna talk about it just once.. it was a tabu. Madonna crashes all the tabus. She throws on people's face

Everyone, does, did or gonna do to please someone. Mostly is not worthy and not good. Women also don't like to perform that but..

If you love someone you want to do that.. See I am a lesbian and I tried men, of course. But never loved them. To me is degrading.

Like everything without love is, empty. So I am a lesbian because I want to perform that blow job with a woman. Madonna broke the barrels.

Men want women to do but recriminate if they speak about it. Well without love no one likes doing that. I don't. Everyone did or gonna do.

We all try sexual stuff untill we figure it out what we want for life. Some people gonna have babies, others like to exchange lovers..

ofhers like experiencing things forever, others want just one love to love unconditionally for the rest of lives.

I am the romantic kind of one love for life. If is not love not gonna do. I already tried all that I wanted to know myself enough..

Definitely a lesbian, no male blowjobs again, sorry men, I really don't like that. I understand who does. Just one woman is enough for me.

I am not a swinger. I am not gonna give birth to a child. I don't intend to, but I love a woman. That's enough.

I am monogamic I don't believe in many lovers at once.. such as balls on juggler's hand. If love someone tell them.

Don't play games. They never work people can feel, a straight answer can help you to make a friend and go on another search for the true one.

domingo, 27 de agosto de 2017

About Royalty

There is never gonna be another Queen on music after #Madonna as we don't have monarchs anymore.. presidents come and go but royalty..

#madonna scandalized everyone doing what she felt in her heart kissing, singing, dancing, composing, creating, fashion, everything..

every woman in this planet had her life affected by her influence somehow. Every woman wanted to do a thing or two she has done..

try a woman, a black boyfriend, a gay friend, fashion trend, talk about sex openly, dare to dream, to be themselves, name it..

and she still does dancing romantic exciting music, directs movies, is a mother, create trends, have political views, cultured, is dynamic

and all those artists don't last cause they don't have those genuine causes.. their music don't changed intrinsically people's life..

I am passionate about her ever since I first saw her listened what a tremendous beautiful force of nature, what an energy.. #madonna


Let's try some altruism next time

ok last time I say but I was reflecting on that my father stood 1 day w his mother at the hospital was his obligation and she felt honored.

is so so hard him doing something altruistic something for others that she felt honored. people are used to praise him for doing something

someone should not be praised for doing his obligations or the right thing. He is never gonna learn how to consider others feelings.

I take care of two people very very old 94 and 97 and some people believes I do nothing all day..

It's exhausting they are deaf have to say same thing close to each one's ear at least 5x EACH I have patience with then it's like kids

It's like having two kids instead of growing they are getting each time more dependent of help of care of patience

me and my aunt decided we are gonna take care of them as long we are able to. They were very loving with us. They deserve love back.

I learned to give value to other things in life than a career or just money.. they are much more things in life worth living too.

sábado, 26 de agosto de 2017

Real Rebellious

being alive, for me, is already an act of rebellion.. according to my sperm donor I shouldn't be born.

Very Unpleasant

My father's mother called me yesterday to tell me my coison Lucas is getting marriage how proud she is of him. Lucas should have been a diplomat..

but she told me that but not inviting me and also remembered that she gave all her jewelry to Lucas's mom who is gonna give his wife a gift

but to me the Law applied is that if I am a lesbian I should not tell anyone not even alone in my room back to the mirror w lights off..🤔

Her voice is echoing in my head like a bug that entered your ear and you want it out.

In London when my father went to pick me up he said to me he is gonna leave all his fortune to Lucas. He is that kind of asshole.. 😃👌💩 I was 19 and around 9 month after losing my mother.

I had no camera he had one and said to me I could lend you this so you photograph the city but I'm not going to. (Before the digital era of cameras)

and I have almost none picutres of there. Only some friend that visited me and took some tue same that photographed my college graduation.


And I don't want to go to any married if the idea was to get me jealous went wrong got me angry amd disturbed how stupid people are.

Oh his mother had an stroke and stood 9 days at the hospital. She said he was there for just one day because his brother asked him to and that he stood all the time on his phone. He wasn't really there. Well, when I had a motorcycle accident and broke my ankle and had to decide either I put or not a pin  he  never even called me to know if I was ok. A friend that is personal trainer said me to not put a pin that I could heal with exercises. And I did healed with exercises and I stood alone at the hospital. Not even a text message or call.

Between us here, dear reader.. do ya think that if was I in love to be married to another woman.. would be such a party and jewelry to the wife to be? Compliments from grandma? Daddy paying and proud of my life?

sexta-feira, 25 de agosto de 2017

Why don't ya get a job? Really?

I want to brown bread, queijo minas frescal and Queensberry jam red fruits.. when I had no money in Rio I had that twice a day + wheyprotein

For 3 months in a flat in Botafogo beach full of cockroaches was like a "concil area" pacified old building with policemen on it 30m square

I had a toaster.. my dad denied me a job in Macae on third month living w roaches I went there to ask him a secretary job

he went to the bus station very angry and suly with me said if I were a man he would punch my face and put me to colect his dog shit but

as a woman I should go back to my grandparents home I would never fit in his house or environment what an asshole!! 💩the roaches were nicer

My father is an asshole! I have so many situations he was harsh and unpleasant amd humiliated me that he is a disgusting person 💩💩

cockroaches were funny very like Joe and The Cockroaches they communicate but that's a long story.. they are definable nicer..

yes sometimes the shit cause come to the surface I share it and then I find a way to overcome it..  once he denied me some help for food..

what am asshole.. looking my friends being dads now mine biological get everyday more disgusting see people loving their child..


he is a shit person only good to himself.

Weird day .. I believe my father sent hos mother to call me after ignoring me for almost 4 years to investigate me.. such a weird feeling.  

she ignored me when I needed her the most and now out of no where called me.. to talk but I cannot talk about him.. weird.


If I depended on him to survive I hadn't.. he doesn't nurtured any kind of affection or love for me.. weird fella.. they ignore people there.

Was heavy for me carry his name through life till I understand that I am what I am and I cannot change that but I can love me instead.

people think they can ignore and humiliate others because they are who they are I am not like that.

the Laws that are applied on Lucas are not the same applied on Daphne. Just saying..

quinta-feira, 24 de agosto de 2017

Harmony

"Give, and it shall be given you: good measure, pressed up, shaken, overflowing, shall be poured out in your bosom: for with what measure ye mete also ye shall be measured." Lucas 6:38

The student should start giving, not asking. Only then will the secret of the overflowing measure be revealed to you.

What does she have to give?

1. her heart
2. her soul
3. her devotion
4. her absolute faith
5. her intelligence
6. her faculties
7. her I

" Dai, e vos será dado: boa medida, recalcada, sacudida, transbordante, será derramada  em vosso regaço; pois com a medida com que medirdes também sereis medidos." Lucas 6:38


O aluno deve começar dando, e não o pedindo. Somente então o segredo da medida transbordante lhe será revelado.

terça-feira, 22 de agosto de 2017

Nuctemeron The Second Hour

NUCTEMRON • APOLONIO OF TIANA - Jan Van Rijckenborgh

SECOND HOUR

Through duality the pisces of the zodiac sing praise to God, the fiery serpents intertwine around the caduceus, and the lightning becomes harmonious.

Mediante a dualidade os peixes do zodíaco entoam louvor a Deus, as serpentes ígneas entrelaçam-se em torno do caduceu, e o relâmpago torna-se harmonioso.

Na Primeira Hora de Apolonio de Tiana, pudemos ver como todas as tensões magnéticas desarmoniosas, incompreendidas e, por conseguinte, desgovernadas, que se manifestam no microcosmo, poderão ser conduzidas à unidade pelo discipulado gnóstico. Elas perdem suas características negativas de maldade e ira e põem-se completamente a serviço do candidato aos mistérios gnósticos.

Cada tensão magnética com que o ser aural do homem se encontra sobrecarregado foi e é causada por determinada ação, em um período de vida de uma das personalidades que viveram no microcosmo. Quando todas essas tensões magnéticas - livres de maldade e ira e de suas reações eventuais - se colocam a serviço do ser humano que está vivendo atualmente no microcosmo, verifica-se a liberação de um imenso tesouro de experiências, de purificação e de conhecimentos, que torna cada candidato mil vezes mais forte do que seria explicável pelo estado de vida comum.

À Primeira Hora ajusta-se agora a Segunda Hora:

Mediante a dualidade, os pisces do zodíaco entoam louvor a Deus, as serpentes ígneas entrelaçam-se em torno do caduceu, e o relâmpago torna-se harmonioso.

Para poderes compreender essas palavras, deveis ter bem presente que a Primeira Hora quis dizer, isto é, que mantendo uma orientação inequívoca e estando sobre o tapete, o candidato consegue o autodomínio e, mediante essa unidade do ser, os demônios no ser perdem a maldade e a ira. Agora, de maneira fundamental, o candidato já não está preso à vida dialética inferior. Ele está livre, então, para poder trilhar a senda. Essa liberdade fundamental somente é possível com base na já mencionada transformação do demônio no ser humano: o subtrair-se da garra caótica das tensões magnéticas, e a ordenação e transformação resultantes.

Tão logo um alumo se tenha libertado dessa garra, ele é confrontado de maneira direta com o campo astral onde vive, com o campo de seu nascimento sidereal, em suma, com o grande campo de vida astral da dialética, pois a oposição não deve ser vencida e ultrapassada somente no próprio microcosmo, mas também no grande mundo, onde vivem o microcosmo e a personalidade.

Nesse campo de vida sideral, com os éons aí dominantes, manifesta-se a força da dualidade, as influências das forças gêmeas da natureza, devido âs quais tudo na natureza visível é impelido para seu oposto, o que esclarece amplamente o jogo da alternância contínua da dialética.

É uma lei natural vigente no campo de nascimento sideral que quando alguém principia com alegria e entusiasmo, em dado momyé tomado e dominado pelo pessimismo e pela tristeza. Não é sem razão - ao contrário - que isso acontece: toda uma série de fenômenos no grande jogodas alternâncias dá motivo para isso em abundância. Assim, alternam-se continuamente. e em todos os aspectos, a crença e a descrença, a certeza e a dúvida, a luz e as trevas.

terça-feira, 15 de agosto de 2017

MADONNA DAY

Madonna is the contemporany muse of Aphrodite for me. So if I had a golden apple to present my favorite woman from all the beauties in the world yes, Madonna gets the Golden Apple.

domingo, 13 de agosto de 2017

To The Man Who Sold The World

https://youtu.be/fregObNcHC8

Father's Day in Brasil goes to my Grandad

My grandpa took care of me since I was two years old. And I just remembered what my biological father said 20 days afrer my mother's funeral when he finally came to make a visit to my grandparents with his wife/business partner, he said to my grandparents: " -Margot, took advantage of all the men she got involved."

My mother worked in 3 jobs to sustain a family and he well, he couldn't hold one in. Due to his "bad habits". And he had the courage to say that about her. My brother's father used to hit her, beating her in front of my grandma that took her back from Santos (the city they lived in SP) to Belo Horizonte. And I believe my brpther is agressive with me also due to his dad that gave him the "good exempe".

So he, my father that never was charged in Alimony to sustain me or even help my mother, he never payed a percentage of what he should and say those things. He used to humiliate me saying that I don't belong to his Status Quo. That I don't belong to his social environment. He is sort of a classy businessman wealthy and he never gave me any support  as a provider he should have been by the Law. And I am a girl. Usually dads have this humiliating behavior with male sons. But nop, my biological father believes I am less person than he is, and I cannot understand how can you put a child on this world to treat them badly, to humiliate, to ignore, to pretend they are not part of your existence, to not teach them how to be happy.. teach tehm that the purpose in life is not just keep yourself alive and support your own self. Is to be happy and enjpy every moment you can.. love and share love. He is wealthy have business companies. He have pleasure in treat me bad. So if I could today I would give him some sperm (of a man with a good nature) in a bottle and say: Well, now I owe you nothing. You gave my mom sperm, I'm giving it back to you.

quarta-feira, 26 de julho de 2017

I'm the fire starter 🔥🔥🔥 and I am the one who burns every night and go through ashes till it's blue again in the morning and new fire begins

but you are the cause there is fire inside me if you could open me spiritually to see you would feel me burning in a blue fire my soul shine


for you I burn in blue 💙

terça-feira, 25 de julho de 2017

My Soul Burns

🔥Artist: Vincent Giarrano • I love you .. ❤️ I have a pain in my soul it burns and it burns and it cannot be set free from this body I am if you don't touch me.. you are the only cure. 
how long lasts forever maybe just a moment but this touch can release my soul from the body I am and then I am ready..
and then I am ready to go and never to return.

I hope the exit is joyful and i hope never to return.
Frida Kahlo

🔥 

sexta-feira, 21 de julho de 2017

Why I dislike b-days let's see

When I was around 3 and lived still w my parents mom and dad used to send me to the playground to have sex, so was for me go at with kids.

was a small flat of 2 rooms so I had to go and most of the time I stood walking around alone. When the boys were there they used to touch me.

So I told my dad and he always went to talk to the boys parents. Once they brough me to the doorman toilet and took off their clothes and laydown on top of me. I felt so guilt. The other day I had a kind of period and pooped my trousers. This day my parents decided to send me to live with my grandparents. I always felt guilt and sweated about my soul out of my body. My father used to remind me and say how he used  to "defend" me from the boys deceiving himself of how a hero he was underestimating that I knew I was going down for them to have sex.

I was only free of this story when I once doing my homework told my grandma and she said to leave it overcome it was a long ago.

I sweated my hands and feet cold. And still today when I am anxious or worried I sweat my soul out of my body.

See I dislike b-day because shit always come to the surface. I was a lonely and unhappy child. I learned to love my loneliness when..

I understood that it could be turned into freedom. But not the negligent freedom my parents had when they left me to be taken cared of..

I always felt I had to leave to scape I had no place to be. I hadn't the dignity to stay I was bad, dirty.

i tried to scape to London fail, and I tried to scape to Rio and asked my father help he never took me out pf the bus station.

He said: if you were a man I would slap your face and put you to collect the shit of my dogs (12dogs) but you are a female and you won't.. get along with my wife so here is 50,00 reais (12 dollars) go back to your grandparents house there you have foot, roof and washed clothes

I once asked my grandfather when I came to live here. He said he doesn't remember the day, but I remember the first thing he did was to put me in School close here called Colibri (HummingBird) and I had to take a picture and the photographer asked to smile or something and I had this sweater with a clock on it and I remember my grandfather saying it was my b-day. I never had b-days parties or celebrations. It was holidays and my grandparents already old. My parents were too busy having sex. My mother used to have three jobs. She was a broadcaster at Radio Inconfidência and at noon she presented the news on local tv station Alterosa (SBT). And my dad, let's see my dad couldn't keep a job or his own shit together. Remember I was sued by him for saying what I think about him, so not going furhter on details of his bad habits. But my grandfather took care of me and also sent a monthly food, clean stuff he payed and shop for their house. My mom didn't had time. But him.. let's see..

they never came or took me somewhere. they were always buzy minding their business when he married again he was always w her. He was incapable of taking me for diner or to the movies. or to be just me and him. what an ass*

So that's why b-days are never good, those are some of my memories but living like that I wasn't a winner at school during childhood and even less at my teens so when I turned 30y and finally got my guts to confront him I used to send him messages, emails. He used all to detort and say that I threatened him, poor worker: he is or was a director at Orteng a french company that buys and sells technology to prospect oil in the plataforms on the ocean. He used to travel to Norway, Swisszerland, Sweden, London, Paris, Denmark, Scotland to learn, buy and sell advanced submarines probes even to Petrobras for the least 20 years. He sued me. He is one of the heartless kind.

domingo, 25 de junho de 2017

Nuctemeron - The First Hour

NUCTEMERON • Apollonio of Tiana

The First Hour

A Primeira Hora

Na unidade os demônios entoam louvor a Deus; eles perdem a maldade e a ira.

"O dia de Deus" consiste em doze partes chamadas de "horas". Tentaremos lançar um olhar sobre a Primeira Hora:

Quem desejar trilhar a senda da Gnosis Universal deve começar ingressando nessa primeira hora. Ela relaciona-se com o caminho joanino (relativo a João Batista): a senda que endireita as veredas para o Deus em nós, que é o homem-alma decaído.

Os "demônios", de que aqui se trata, não são as várias espécies de fantasmas que habitam a *esfera refletora, mas sim os demônios presentes em cada ser humano. Sem o menor exagero, pode-se dizer que qualquer ser humano dialético é possuído pelo demônio.

O demoníaco é o mal e o impuro, o pecaminoso no ser humano. O demoníaco é a soma negativa de todas as existências que foram vividas no microcosmo e habitam o subconsciente como um feixe de certas tensões magnéticas.

O microcosmo donser humano contém inúmeras cargas magnéticas heterogêneas, acumuladas por ele em suas intermináveis viagens pela natureza dialética devido a toda a espécie de situações de vida, sentimentos, pensamentos, ações e experiências.

Compreendereis que cada ser humano está sempre ocupado em engendrar novas tensões magnéticas negativas, isto é, ainda latentes. Todas essas tensões, tão diferentes, formam o campo de respiração particular, o campo de vida, a atmosphera na qual, na qualidade de ser humano, respirais.

Talvez já observastes as nuvens passar no ar e, ao fixardes os olhos nelas, vistes em cada nuvem inúmeros rostos, com múltiplas formas. Eles fitam-vos, e seu olhar perde-se à distância; eles mudam de maus para inexpressivos, e neles há algo de mortiço, de irreal. São como sonhos negativos. Assim também podeis fixar os olhos em vosso próprio campo de respiração, no interior de vosso ser aural. Ali, todas as tensões magnéticas nebulosas possuem igualmente cabeças, bem como figuras fantásticas e gigantescas, mais ou menos monstruosas e demoníacas. Assim, pode-se compreender a razão de falarem de demônios as pessoas que podem vê-las no próprio ser. Eles são as imagens das tensões magnéticas que habitam o subconsciente. São as tensões do campo de respiração aural.

Por que se fala de "subconsciente"? Bem, porque também existe ainda outra consciência, a consciência-eu comum. A consciência-eu desenvolve-se com uma soma de todos os princípios de consciência, de todos os átomos que formam vosso sistema. Ela é alimentada diretamente por radiações siderais que chegam até vós de nosso cosmo circundante. As nuvens demoníacas das tensões magnéticas de que acabamos de falar não permanecem apenas em vosso campo de respiração, mas também vos penetram; elas fazem parte dos cinco fluidos anímicos (relacionados à alma) naturais e, por conseguinte, de cada átomo de vosso ser.

Portanto, não existe somente um princípio de vida posotivo no ser humano que lhe permite dizer "eu", mas também há nele uma compulsão subconsciente, uma longa e difícil viagem para os abismos do passado, a multiplicidade de vozes de um princípio de vida negativo, do subconsciente.

É por essa razão que muitos investigadores da psique humana verificaram, em todos os tempos, a existência de dois eus no ser humano: o eu da consciência comum e o eu da subconsciência; o eu da natureza comum e o eu da natureza desarmoniosa e diabólico. É evidente que todos os seres humanos vivem desses dois eus. Em certo momento, eles vivem do eu comum, e considera-se isso normal. No momento seguinte, vivem do subconsciente e são, como se diz, anormais. Nesse caso, são arrastados pelas forças primitivas do passado a ações, pensamentos e sentimentos que o eu normal lastima.

Existem pessoas, muitas pessoas, que são governadas tão fortemente pelas tensões magnéticas desarmoniosas que levam uma vida que mostra mais o aspecto anormal do que o normal. Então elas possuídas pelo demônio; frequentemente elas descem abaixo das normas de vida que sociedade   estabelece; seu sistema nervoso nada pode fazer em contrário.

Essas pessoas são consideradas criminosas. E os que devem julgá-las e condená-las, e os que como massa humana se encontram a seu redor, ainda não estão sob o jugo do próprio subconsciente. Ainda não! Sua natureza subconsciente ainda não vem à tona, mas atrás dos muros de casa, atrás das paredes dos quartos, deixam que seus impulsos tenham livre curso. Dessa maneira eles ainda podem conservar certo equilíbrio, ao passo que na vida pública assumem uma expressão de integridade. Todavia, seu estado é tão sinuoso e tão complicado quanto o dos outros. Essa é a condição de toda a onda de vida humana em manifestação.

Os incontáveis séculos das manifestações dialéticas falam em cada ser como uma série de tensões magnéticas desarmonisas e de problemas não resolvidos. Isso é o pecaminoso nele. E quem diz, como ser humano natural, que não veio do pecado mente. É nessa realidade, nessa medonha realidade, que Apolonio de Tiana se dirige a seus alunos.

Percebeis, assim, que a chamada psicologia moderna não é absolutamente moderna. Ela é uma tentativa de proteger o ser humano, com as verdades dos antigos gnósticos e dos antigos métodos ocultistas, contra seus próprios demônios, sem curá-los verdadeiramente. É a versão moderna do velho e conhecido exorcismo.

Apolonio de Tiana coloca seus alunos diante da mais assustadora verdade dialética: a de que cada ser humano é o produto da totalidade do passado do microcosmo. O passado e o presente emaranham-se em dois eus: o consciente e o subconsciente.

Como deveis conduzir-vos agora diante dessa realidade chocante? Tendes de aceitá-la! Tendes de esforçar-vos para colocar todo esse complexo de tensões magnéticas diante da Gnosis e de sua luz, quando a Primeira Hora do Nuctemeron eleva sua voz. Assim, invocais as radiações consoladoras e curadoras de Belém, na profunda fé de que somente dos montes dessa sublimidade virá vossa salvação. Assim, invocais, em primeiro lugar, as verdadeiras forças curadoras. E uma vez que invocais essas radiações magnéticas, é claro que tendes de viver completamente delas. Deveis - assim diz Apolonio de Tiana - afadigar-vos com toda a vossa seriedade nessas forças para, assim realizar algo.

Desse modo, no aluno que se encontra sobre o tapete, desenvolvem-se cinco processos, ao mesmo tempo, no conscience e no subconsciente.

Em primeiro lugar, a Gnosis submete-vos a um julgamento. Isso significa que a totalidade da vida e do campo de vida, com toda a sua complexidade, são atacadas pelas radiações gnósticas.

Assim, o candidato chega, em segundo lugar, a grande autoconhecimento. O consciente e o subconsciente são confrontados reciprocamente. O aluno descobre as origens das estranhas e divergentes tensões que tão frequentemente governam e estorvam sua vida, e que tantas vezes assumem formas gigantescas.

Desse modo, em terceiro lugar, o candidato vence o autodesprezo. Não é verdade que sois frequentemente possuídos pelo auto-desprezo, pela auto-repreensão? Em muitos momentos não vos considerais secretamente um indivíduo insignificante? Não conheceis e experimentais frequentemente o efeito paralisante que resulta disso? Para vencê-lo, precisais examinar completamente a causa dessa diabólica força paralisante. Examinar essa causa à luz da Gnosis significa, ao mesmo tempo, sua remoção. Após cair nesse auto-desprezo, o candidato fica por muito tempo cercado de grande vácuo, em que nada mais emtra senão grande frialdade. É a solidão da terra de ninguém.

Eis que por que, em quarto lugar, o vácuo do isolamento é rompido pelas radiações gnósticas, e a salvação gnóstica penetra finalmente todas as partes do microcosmo, da personalidade e do campo de respiração. Assim, os focos de uma nova força de vida vão-se formando em todo o campo de respiração. Uma nova esfera magnética começa a expandir-se. Um novo estado de eu começa a formar-se. Esse novo eu é a síntese, a unificação do consciente com o subconsciente. Todas as desarmonias convertem-se em harmonia.

Então, em quinto lugar chega o momento glorioso em que, nessa unificação, as antigas tensões desarmoniosas se dissipam e, na unidade recém-surgida, todos os antigos demônios e diabos entoam louvores ao Pai. Todas as oposições desaparecem e perdem sua antiga ira e maldade.

Desse modo, cada candidato pode endireitar as veredas para o seu deus e torna-se totalmente digno de trilhar a senda da libertação de modo consciente.

Primeiro, o subconsciente deve dissolver-se no consciente, e depois ambos devem fazê-lo na purificação da Gnosis. Essa é a tarefa da Primeira Hora do Nuctemeron de Apolonio de Tiana. Quem começa essa tarefa na primeira hora do seu dia de Deus, não extingue o passado ou o carma, como muitos costumam frisar, porém ele faz o passado tornar-se muito valioso, pois faz dele um tesouro permanente de sabedoria, experiência e força.

As tensões desarmoniosas donpassado, que se agit e revolvem nonser hano, não são causadas, em princípio, por ações e pensamentos terríveis e acontecimentos assustadores em tempos passados, mas referem-se sobretudo a coisas, vivências, problemas e processos que ainda não foram solucionados, que ainda não chegaram a um fim, que ainda não foram concluídos. Por conseguinte, o ser humano encontra-se diante da tarefa que seus antepassados e predecessores não realizaram.

Quando, mediante a vida de autodescoberta do verdadeiro discipulado, deixais a atmosphera gnóstica penetrar todo o vosso ser, endireitais as veredas, armadoscom o conhecimento provindo do tesouro do passado. Então, tudo o que se manifesta como desarmonioso entoará, com tudo o mais, sonoro louvor ao deus em vós. Todo o passado apresenta-se como um benefício no hojo vivente, base de um futuro absolutamente seguro.

Na unidade das forças naturais, com base na alma-espírito, todas as forças da natureza cantam o louvor e a honra de Deus. Elas perder a maldade e a ira.








sexta-feira, 23 de junho de 2017

Madonna is the most powerful free woman

🔥🖤🔥Blue Eyes🔥 All that gossiping saying Madonna spent $5million euros in a house I bet it all for her son not for that Portuguese bitch.. 

He must be feeling the shit with all these gossip all around the world even here in Belo Horizonte is said she is "in love" with him.. 


Madonna is a smart woman who is not in any man's hand. Sorry for the illusion.. I bet Aboubakar was a friend that she invited to be w her.. 


Not everything with her is sexual or she is carried away of her feet by any man.. or woman.. 

She knows exactly what she wants and expects of each situation she always be on control of her own fucking life. 

And that's why people, the crowd, she is the Queen and her fans adore her above everything she taught us to love ourselves first. She is the female empowered herself. She is the Sun herself. 


She have friends and family she doesn't need a dick to be happy 😎She is funny and stuff and people don't respect her the much she really need.. she is the boss she decides what she wants. We mortal applause. 


I bet the house she bought was a great investment if she is sending her son in an exchange program. She can do what the fuck she want. 


Another guess, is the cheapest house of her patrimony so stop making assumptions she can decide and decide again in a blink of the eyes. And that's my friend is the most powerfully free woman in America cause she can decide, choose, buy, sell and direct simply anything. 


Her husband bahahah 🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂 don't be ridiculous she is not that stupid.. She has her fun as in Sex and the City but she is also a huge entrepreneur.. she is not spending time and money on that.. with BoyToys.. I remember he tagged himself as a King on her birthday party.. a king of wich kingdom? With which merit? People have equivocated egos..


*He is not even the most beautiful man that floated around her.. he is  without seasoning he doesn't have the "si ne qua non".. Just because he has another one that looks exactly like him doesn't make him tasteful or spicy .. can make her laugh for a while but what else?



And plus I bet she is working in a movie indeed..


Madonna isn't a dependent of anyone or anything.. never heard her doing drugs or desperate about anything she is the Queen, bitch!


You know what I am? I am a fucking fan. I am leo and I am loyal as fuck. And I have an honest character I don't live of pretend..


I had to switch off those Google feed cause all the News were: Madonna is moving to Portugal to live with boytoy 🤣😂🤣😂I don't believe the hype.

So Mdonna is quitting her movie plans and her career to be on the hands of a boytoy? Hilarious but I don't believe the hype.

The house she bought for $5m is costing already $14m someone is profiting with this story.. it is convenient to Portugal media say that..

Well until she, herself, goes to public to say that all this bullshit is real I laugh and truly don't believe the hype. 😁💩

I don't care if everyone is pressuring her like that Drake story saying that his was charming and all that shit until @madonna #madonna say 

quinta-feira, 1 de junho de 2017

The 4th Hour of Nuctemeron • Apolonio of Tiana

4th Hour of Nuctemeron • Apolonio of Tiana

"On the Fourth Hour, the Soul returns from the visit to the tombs, the moment when the Magic Lanterns are lit in the four corners of the circles, it is the hour of spells and illusions."

"Na Quarta Hora a Alma retorna da visita aos túmulos. É o momento em que as Lanternas Mágicas são acesas nos quatro cantos dos círculos. É a hora dos sortilégios e das ilusões."

O candidato eacapou das três bocarras de Cérbero. Os perigos do medo, do dogmatismo e da idolatria foram neutralizados pelo candidato mediante as três línguas do relâmpago, mediante a força tríplice do caduceu renovado (fogo serpentino dentro da coluna cervical).

Se acompanhastes com atenção até este ponto vossa viagem investigativa, compreendestes que o candidato aos mistério universais deve provar, ao ingressar na quarta hora mágica, se de fato é capaz de seguir como homem autônomo o caminho da grande e mágica autolibertação.

Foi para isso que ele se preparou. Ele satisfez as exigências elementares e desempediu todos os caminhos para a grande viagem. Cérbero, o guardião do portal, Afastou-para o lado. O candidato passa pelos portais pois agora está livre para fazê-lo. Todas as forças libertadoras estão concentradas nele. Agora ele precisa mostrar que uso fará delas.

Suponde que esta seja a vossa situação: estais preparado para a viagem. Vossas roupas estão prontas, e dispondes do dinheiro para realizá-la. Conheceis o alvo da viagem. Em princípio, nada mais poderá atrapalhar-vos o caminho ou opor-vos resistência. No entanto, em vossa viagem pelos mistérios universais, não sereis embalados, transportados e entregues no destino. Ou, falando de maneira romântica, não sereis levados para o alvo como que em asas de anjos com música e cântico de salmos. Não, equipados com todas as possibilidades e forças, vós mesmos tendes de estabelecer a direção passo a passo. Vós mesmos tendes de tomar a decisão no tocante a cada detalhe do plano da viagem. Por conseguinte, as novas faculdades têm de ser utilizadas, testadas, e tendes de aprender a manejá-las na prática. Assim, a viagem inteira dependerá de vossa própria avaliação.

Se possuís cérebro, tendes de utilizá-lo; se possuís coração, tendes de fazê-lo irradiar. Assim, todas as faculdades do estado de alma capaz de libertar a humanidade devem ser colocadas em prática. Essa é a razão pela qual muitas dificuldades no desenvolvimento do candidato somente principiam depois de ele ter passado por Cérbero. São dificuldades que resultam da inexperiência da fase inicial, da fragilidade do novo estado de nascimento. E repetimos: a totalidade da viagem a ser iniciada agora deve basear-se na nova faculdade de avaliação. Ninguém, a não ser vós mesmos, deverá decidir sobre o que deveis fazer ou deixar de fazer na Quarta Hora; vós mesmos tendes de avaliar, tomar a decisão e executá-la. A vós de todos os vossos irmãos e irmãs silencia na Quarta Hora.

É chegado o momento em que as lanternas mágicas de um estado de avaliação autônoma são acesas nos quatro cantos dos círculos. E deveis atentar se a alma, após ter visitado os túmulos, deles regressa de fato. Por túmulos devemos entender aqui a natureza da morte, que, com todas as assim chamadas manifestações de vida, é, em essência, gigantesco cemitério. Nela nada existe que, em realidade, não seja efêmero. A vida da dialética, com todos os aspectos, é uma sepultura terrível.

A Quarta Hora deve agora comprovar, pois, o candidato, que em princípio já está equipado de maneira fundamental para a grande viagem, que já preparou tudo para ela, também já se despediu de fato e no mais amplo sentido da imensa armadilha da dialética.

Essa sepultura é mais complicada do que o candidato possa imaginar à primeira vista. Ela não somente possui os aspectos materiais grosseiros, mas abrange também muitos estados de ser extremamente refinados e cultivados. E quando venceis o que é grosseiro e o mais banal, o refinado, o velado e o seleto atacam-vos. Quem ingressa na Quarta Hora vivencia "a hora dos sortilégios e das ilusões". Justamente então ele precisa urgentemente das "lanternas mágicas nos quatro cantos dos círculos".

Os círculos de que se fala aqui também podem ser indicados como esferas ou círculos de vida. O estado de vida dialético, em sua totalidade, abrange diversas esferas ou círculos de vida em que se manifestam vários estados de ser. Pela expressão "esfera refletora" compreendemos todos esses diferentes círculos de vida e os processos que neles se manifestam.
É claro, pois, que quando o candidato enceta sua viagem e se eleva, por conseguinte, acima da esfera mais grosseira do reino dos mortos, ele deve em seguida atravessar todos os outros círculos da natureza da morte, em vivência consciente e triunfante. Para tanto, ele deve colocar em cada círculo de vida pelo qual almeja passar as quatro lanternas mágicas, para que, na luz quádrupla da avaliação mágica, ele possa eliminar o sortilégio e a ilusão de cada um desses círculos de vida.

Apolonio de Tiana indica aqui, portanto, um processo mencionado em todas as escrituras sagradas da Doutrina Universal de todos os tempos. Pensai, por exemplo, na viagem da Pistis Sophia: em seu retorno para o Décimo Terceiro Éon, ela não pode omitir nenhum círculo de vida. Em cada círculo que ela atravessa, os éons e forças tentam detê-la ou aprisioná-la.

Pensai ma viagem de Dante, em A Divina Comédia. Ao iniciar a angustiante viagem, ao encetar sua viagem pelo inferno, ele encontra-se em uma floresta tenebrosa. Imediatamente precisa apelar para as faculdades de seu próprio estado de ser, e assim se recupera de um ataque de medo:

"Mas depois que cheguei ao pé de uma colina,
Lá onde termina o vale
Que me havia compungido do medo o coração,

Olhei para o alto e vi sua encosta
Vestida já dos raios do planeta
Que reto conduz o homem por todas as vias.

Então aquietou-se um pouco o medo
Que, no lago do coração, me havia durado
Toda a noite, passada com tanto pesar.

E como alguém que ofegante
Emerge do pélago e atinge a praia
Volta-se para a água perigosa e a encara,

Assim meu ânimo, ainda fugindo,
Voltou-se para contemplar de novo o passo
Que pessoa alguma jamais deixara com vida."

E de Jesus, o Senhor, foi nos dito que morreu, foi sepultado, desceu ao reino dos mortos, ressuscitou, ascendeu aos céus ou ingressou em sua  pátria.

Esse é o caminho universal de cada candidato. Por isso é descrita de maneira lógica para nós a Quarta Hora de Nuctemeron, essa viagem pelo inferno, essa marcha através de todos os círculos da natureza dialética.

A seguir, precisamos ainda deter-nos das quatro lanternas mágicas que são colocadas nos quatro cantos de cada círculo a ser ultrapassado. Essas quatro luzes formam naturalmente um quadrado mágico, um tapete, uma base de construção, uma chave absoluta. Conheceis o quadrado mágico universal do tapete da Rosacruz: unidade de grupo, orientação inequívoca, ausência de luta e harmonia em todas as manifestações de vida.

O quadrado mágico da autoavaliação enobrecida, no qual se acha a força para passar por todos os sortilégios e ilusões dos círculos, consiste em:

1. Razão pura
2. Vontade pura
3. Sentimento puro ou coração puro
4. E Ação pura

A avaliação absoluta depende de estardes perfeitamente firmes na Gnosis e orientados para ela sem vacilações. Vossa vontade não deve querer outra coisa que senão o que a Gnosis quer. Vosso coração somente deve amar o que a Gnosis deseja que o coração ame. Vossa vida de ações não deve realizar outra coisa senão o que está em harmonia com a razão, com a vontade e com o coração.

Essas são as quatro luzes da magia que, em cada círculo de vida, em cada passagem, devem envolver o candidato. Sabe-se que forças poderosas se encontram ocultas na razão, na vontade e no coração. Quando, impelidos por essas trêa forças, o ser humano passa à ação, à realização, ele fica ligado aos resultados da ação, que o detém até ele ser capaz de aniquilar novamente a ação e suas consequências. Por isso, compreendereis a necessidade urgente de pôr em prática a magia gnóstica das quatro luzes. O conhecimento e a experiência pertinentes a isso não caem do céu. Eles devem ser conquistados! Eles devem provar se a alma, de fato, em todos os aspectos, regressou da visita aos túmulos.

Por fim, consideremos ainda os sortilégios e as ilusões. São também quatro em número, ordenados em quatro rubricas, como sombras projetadas ou imitações das quatro luzes mágicas.

A primeira imitação é a que aparece frequentemente nos círculos da vida mais sutis da natureza dialética: a mistura da verdade com a mentira, da realidade com a aparência, mediante a qual uma segunda intenção, uma orientação egocêntrica, um desejo proveniente da natureza da morte é envolvido com uma bela linguagem e com vestidura da verdade, a fim de conseguir ser ouvido e realizado.

A segunda imitação é o vemeno dos falsos ensinamentos, o veneno mortal de cobra. A absorção desse veneno por um ser humano, bebendo-o ou injetando-o, faz com que ele fique agrilhoado à natureza da morte.

A terceira imitação é a do amor. O amor, todos os seus aspectos, mesmo no mais refinado, mesmo naquele classificado como desapaixonado, é finito. O que queremos dizer com isso é que um assim chamado relacionamento sentimental na natureza dialética também está voltado para o eu, para a auto-satisfação e a auto-conservação, para a exploração, a relação entre senhor e escravo, a ostentação. É um amor, uma condição sentimental, que nada tem a ver com a natureza do amor, com a esfera de amor da alma.

A quarta imitação é a especulação, a irreflexão, a irracionalidade, a ação espontânea negativa sem fundamento, sem a razão, motivadas por tendências ou influências.

Essas quatro imitações ameaçam cada candidato em sua viagem de alma através dos círculos da natureza da morte. Contudo, se ele souber conservar acesas suas quatro lanternas mágicas e realmente tiver regressado da visita aos túmulos, nada poderá causar-lhe dano.

Amen.







quinta-feira, 25 de maio de 2017

O Vaso Rachado

*⚱O Vaso rachado⚱*

     Uma velha chinesa tinha dois grandes vasos, cada um suspenso na extremidade de uma vara que ela carregava nas costas.
     Um dos vasos era rachado e outro era perfeito. Todos os dias ela ia ao rio buscar água, e ao fim da longa caminhada do rio até a casa o vaso perfeito chegava sempre cheio de água, enquanto o vaso rachado chegava meio vazio. Naturalmente o vaso perfeito tinha muito orgulho  do seu próprio resultado e o pobre vaso rachado tinha vergonha do seu defeito, de conseguir só fazer a metade daquilo que deveria fazer.
     Ao fim de dois anos, refletindo sobre sua própria amarga derrota de ser rachado, durante o caminho para o rio o vaso rachado disse à velha:
" - Tenho vergonha de mim mesmo, porque esta rachadura que tenho faz-me perder metade da água até a sua casa..."
A velha sorriu:
- " Reparaste que lindas flores há ao teu lado do caminho, somente no teu lado?"
Eu sempre soube do teu defeito e portanto plantei sementes de flores na beira da estrada do teu lado. Todos os dias, enquanto voltávamos do rio, tu regava-as.
     Foi assim durante dois anos, pude apanhar belas flores para enfeitar a mesa e alegrar o meu jantar. Se tu não fosses como és, não teria tido aquelas  maravilhas na minha casa."
Cada um de nós tem seu próprio defeito, mas é o defeito que cada um de nós tem, que faz com que nossa convivência seja interessante e gratificante. É preciso aceitar cada um pelo que é, e descobrir o que há de bom nele!
Ame as pessoas com seus defeitos...
*AME apenas AME !*



* ⚱The Cracked Vase *

     A Chinese old woman had two large pots, each hung at the end of a stick she carried on her back.
     One of the vases was cracked and another was perfect. Every day she went to the river to fetch water, and at the end of the long river walk to the house the perfect vessel was always filled with water, while the cracked vessel came half empty. Of course the perfect vessel was very proud of its own result, and the poor cracked vessel was ashamed of its defect, of being able to do only half of what it was supposed to do.
     After two years, reflecting on his own bitter defeat of being cracked, on the way to the river the cracked pot told the old woman:
"I'm ashamed of myself, because this crack I have causes me to lose half the water to your house ..."
The old woman smiled.
"Did you notice that beautiful flowers are on your side of the road, only on your side?"
I always knew of your defect, and so I planted flower seeds on the side of the road on your side. Every day, as we came back from the river, you watered them.
     It was so for two years, I was able to pick beautiful flowers to decorate the table and brighten my dinner. If you were not like you are, I would not have had those wonders in my house. "
Each of us has its own defect, but it is the defect that each one of us has, which makes our living together interesting and rewarding. One must accept each one for what he is, and find out what is good in him!
Love people with their faults ...
* LOVE just LOVE! *

domingo, 15 de janeiro de 2017

Overflow

I lost a friend who held the key of part of my destiny the Hope I held on to breath and live for the last year when my father sued me.

I was waiting my tool to arrive and my soul wander in a reality of matter my soul who is known to be free from my matter as my falcon eyes.

You know my soul by a lioness but it has to be my falcon first so it assumes the matter fling form to be then the lioness figure .

The things I know the Alchemy of possibilities.. the magic of how the energy travels.

I know a few things you would say analogies and figure forms of language.. ancient mythology.

Cause we are seeing aliens amd thinking we are seeing God. God would never be material.. you can feel Its expression It manifests.

Outside technologies explains now teletransport, another dimensions speed of light literally but when I transformed a falcon and lioness.

In me?

Waiting for tools working for better tools.. when energy has to fly it goes it traves with the sources of the beauty it has.

They say live in a way you don't destroy God's creation, not your body, not a plant specially not an animal you don't know how they work.

Everything isagic and enchanted and you gonna the face of God in everything when you lose you matter but your body is the tool you need.

Is the tool you gonna use to construct some of the reality you gonna live when you became just a free soul you worked your whole life to be.

If you created light immaterial light you gonna live of it. Who you choosed to touch if you leave footsteps or not.

I am so unmotivated cause I am watching my soul coming back of plan it was ahead already there and the material way doesn't exist anymore.

It flies and back as if it wants to build grain by grain the reality by it's own with sobrenatural effort watching me looking with a candle.

God is immaterial and is permanent. It is an experience one feels inside their heart that blows hope and lights your energy up when you trust.

This was just a overflow

After a talk with a friend of mom, she is like a mom to me too, she gave me new breath.. afterall MOM´s give people´s life and we call it LIGHT.

I was in need.

GoodNight