quinta-feira, 23 de novembro de 2017

Instagram is a communication tool

I only posted paintings and drawings no photographs and according to the rules, nudity on paintings and drawings are OK. So this time there is no reason. Please, consider. My account is what fulfill my routine. I am a 34y old woman that lives and take care of her grandparents one is 97 and the other is 94 years old. I live with them since I was 2. I am a lesbian and I cannor have someone due to the condition of living with them. That’s my only distraction. Besides that I can travel once in a while and my aunt takes care of them she is a doctor. Without my account that I dedicate to female art I have no other distractions or social media. I’m having an anxiety attack. It’s not the first time i’m deactivated but the other times I posted photographs also. This time only paintings. I am a photographer and also an art student and I don’t have a back up of the images. I’m a Madonna fan that’s my only motivation. I really love her. Please. Consider that. The human side of people, the feelings. Not just a number, an algorithm, another account in millions. Consider that, some people lean on Instagram accounts to be breath, to dream, to keep living. I want to meet people I only have access through Instagram. I rely on my account to meet them. Nowadays people rely on their accounts as it is their bank accounts. People make friends. And if you have a friend you have everything. Consider that, humanly.


It’s very humiliating and degrading depend on machine and other people that envision profits if can or cannot communicate through Instagram, which is a fucking company not a community. On a community people can opine on Instagram algorithms and few rich people take decisions.

And that’s is the 1984, the real Big Brother inspecting amd deciding for you what and how you can or cannot communicate. Pay attention 🚨

Communication is the key of Life, of Love.

Mastercard read you as algorithms and send those phishing ads cause they know you boight a house and need a new tv, new fridge.. the geolocate you and when you are in front of a store they send you an advertise! How creepy clever. And you do not consider being controlled?

 https://www.uol/economia/especiais/entrevista-uol-lideres-joao-pedro-paro-neto-mastercard.htm#prevendo-sua-proxima-compra


https://m.tecmundo.com.br/amp/redes-sociais/123954-ex-funcionario-revela-cotidiano-revisor-violencia-odio-facebook.htm


Will anyone give me an answer about my account? It’s really disturbing and I am feeling anguish. If you never experienced that is sort of am anxiety attack. Is this really necessary, there are only paintings and drawings posted on my account. Who has a problem with female nude body should get treatment. Do you feel violently attracted to paintings or sculptures pn a museum? That’s just presumptuous, deprive my account like that.

segunda-feira, 13 de novembro de 2017

Surfaced Feeling

I just remembered the day my father came to my house said I  a social parasite and that he would put me in a mental institution and sell all my properties to pay for my life there. Such a pleasant person he is. He wish he could punch my face..

some pleasant remembrances are coming to the top what for? When it’s my mom’s date of death I was in court with him he sued me and then removed the process one day before the last audience a bit ashamed cause the game wasn’t flowing to his side..

He played to the judge that he barely knew this “lady” and the judge said.. she is not a lady she is your daughter. I’m used here to deal with killers, burglars, first time I see a dad suing his own daughter without trying to fix it at home. Asshole.

Wasn’t that much I said he was promiscuous and used drugs, my opinion but I had no propfs and kinda put it on my blog. But he decided to sue me. He is an asshole and absent enormous asshole

I tried everything humanly possoble.. many times I called him and asked why you never call me to know how I feel, how I am? He said he is not like that.. bahaha! And someone who is indifferent to his own only daughter (he had no son either) is what? Is for me to think what?

My whole life he ignored me even when I was a child and my mom was still alive he had to pick me up to go to the club for 2h every Sunday I stood alone most of the time he was always w his friends or girlfriend.. He never gave me real attention, real love, real support

If I have the impression he used drugs or were promiscuous was through the exemples he showed me when I was a child. I know addicted people and they act the same. And I never experienced other fathers being like he is to me to my friends or people I met.

He like to throw at my face I am not part of his life. I am not eligible, that I am always inappropriat, inadequate, wrong. I tried all. He was never gentle, or did something for me to see me happy. To be with me. His mom used to like me but then she saw how rich he is so he is great

Rich people are never wrong.. She was always inadequate.. really since I was born? 🤔 I used to try.. then to hate.. and now I ignore most of the time but some feelings come to the surface like a vomit 🤢