segunda-feira, 13 de novembro de 2017

Surfaced Feeling

I just remembered the day my father came to my house said I  a social parasite and that he would put me in a mental institution and sell all my properties to pay for my life there. Such a pleasant person he is. He wish he could punch my face..

some pleasant remembrances are coming to the top what for? When it’s my mom’s date of death I was in court with him he sued me and then removed the process one day before the last audience a bit ashamed cause the game wasn’t flowing to his side..

He played to the judge that he barely knew this “lady” and the judge said.. she is not a lady she is your daughter. I’m used here to deal with killers, burglars, first time I see a dad suing his own daughter without trying to fix it at home. Asshole.

Wasn’t that much I said he was promiscuous and used drugs, my opinion but I had no propfs and kinda put it on my blog. But he decided to sue me. He is an asshole and absent enormous asshole

I tried everything humanly possoble.. many times I called him and asked why you never call me to know how I feel, how I am? He said he is not like that.. bahaha! And someone who is indifferent to his own only daughter (he had no son either) is what? Is for me to think what?

My whole life he ignored me even when I was a child and my mom was still alive he had to pick me up to go to the club for 2h every Sunday I stood alone most of the time he was always w his friends or girlfriend.. He never gave me real attention, real love, real support

If I have the impression he used drugs or were promiscuous was through the exemples he showed me when I was a child. I know addicted people and they act the same. And I never experienced other fathers being like he is to me to my friends or people I met.

He like to throw at my face I am not part of his life. I am not eligible, that I am always inappropriat, inadequate, wrong. I tried all. He was never gentle, or did something for me to see me happy. To be with me. His mom used to like me but then she saw how rich he is so he is great

Rich people are never wrong.. She was always inadequate.. really since I was born? 🤔 I used to try.. then to hate.. and now I ignore most of the time but some feelings come to the surface like a vomit 🤢