I believe I need to write

 I function better when I write. It helps me to organize how to think. Chimera of the Sphinx. I was actually looking for some popular sayings I copied from a master book many years ago.

I Only Write .........

I want a soft surface
Uma superfície lisa
Para me deitar
So I can embrace
Toda a luz solar

I can only write when I am in love for the first time...... before people break my trust in them. I even forgive and forget many times, but them the words fade.... the poetic vein is very sensitive at the core in the middle of the spine being pumped by the heart....... so I believe when I afloated at that shore, when I runaway and you found me lost you said: If you are ever in the ocean don’t drown dive let’s dive with the whales..... and we did. And that very first night I couldn’t breath and I said to you I am a hummingbird with a broken wing...... I am a lion with a broken heart since the day that tiny bird flew from my heart and you took care of it at first was more an Spiritual kind of Love you and the stars and all the other souls who put me together, you made me up differently. And since then, I’ve been living a better beautiful

But if anyone wants to read it here.... go ahead. It was before I started my treatment and there is a lot of anger and sadness but also poetry, attempts to fly, a Vernaculous Language, (some people create a vernacular language and it’s a short cut to access their soul) .......  Proverbs and popular sayings

Juros e mais juros

https://joaoantoniomotta.blogosfera.uol.com.br/2018/05/14/o-que-bancos-e-empresas-de-cartoes-de-credito-nao-te-contam-sobre-juros/

Divine Negotiations

basicslly the co-movement is about acting in harmonie with God.. and start the transfiguration the regeneration from the consequences of our actions when we weren’t aware (turn karma into a vó-movement law). Without resistance. The soul is trapped in a physical body.

The soul is important not the body. The body is an instrument. We damage it everyday.. we should care about the soul. And after saying that, of course the body has to be turned into a temple. Nobody can invade or influence you damage you more. You manage it.

When we lose the physical body and all the physical agony one must detach from the earthly things and search for the divine with the golden lanterns engineered during “physical life” the other life is achieved “the resurrection” is in another life sphere, another astral plan.

the physical body is merely a car, a transportation for the accomplishment of the task o self awareness of the Soul. Then one take care of it till it no longer has an use (physical body death). Then one go on with the aware of the Soul. She/he is complete again.

the restoration leads back to the Original Being female-male complete free from the flesh, free from agony and pain. Archetype of God’s Plan. One that accomplish this task can be a creator again at the sixth region of Light.

well an exemple of turning karma law: I accept tue consequences of my actions in front of Gnosis, of God’s wisdom. I accept without resistance anymore. So that happened to me, was my fault due the choices I made. I accept in my heart. God is full of Mercy with honest true hearts

I say so, then: this something that I believe is honestly good, full of love, should happen to me then.. as a counter point of that consequences I payed before or am paying. Gnosis the Divine wisdom is to decide if you deserve through honesty and if it’s a decision made with love

so when you negotiate with God, the Gnosis, your heart is measure every single night. Not when you die. You realize you die everyday. You pay everyday, you start making smarter decisions, with pure heart and honesty. And good consequences also appear.

that’s why the Path is lonely only you negotiating with God all day everyday. Your individually: what you realized that must accomplish before your physical body dies. and regenerate the Original Soul for the other level of life abandoning earthly things including the body itself

Your heart measured everynight, every hour, if the decisions are made with true incorruptible love, you’re not taking advantage of anyone else, not being greedy, your ways the Path is gonna configure and open. Not easily, because everything is measured. One must act accordingly

So if what you seek right now to accomplish is made of love, simple and pure, and you are already in sacrifice in life, you can change your perception, your perspective and instead of fearing God or arguing you can use a valid argument to achieve a divine wish into your Path

immaterial accomplishments are more reasonable such as the essence of God is immaterial so the currency of exchange is love. You cannot pay with money, gold, healthy etc, only Love can achieve Love. It’s the only currency the heart must be crystal clear, independently of the body

all the conversations with God, everything you believe in your Path, everything you feel, understand, the signals you see are real communication that’s why it’s lonely and individual and God has to be experienced. You cannot explain to others what you comprehend.

More you close your magical negotiations and be more love and turned to the Spirit more your ways open. More the conversation more immaterial informations and signs of God’s existance you perceive. Very individually. So life is about you God and achieving Soul tasks

Close in a sense that you don’t reveal your heart treasures to everyone. Not everyone has ears to listen your truth. Your guts get sharp. More you comprehend the subjective and subtleties. That’s the real living. You don’t have to stand people you don’t like. Life is too short

I only have time for the ones I love otherwise I’d rather be with God, alone, negotiating, resting, generating the love I feel, I want .. the love I love..

The Book of Love

The Book of Love


Human love is the preparation for divine love.
Desire: Divine flush infused in the other.
All part of the resemblance. And when love is true lovers identify with each other. We went from solitary love to reciprocal love. Similarity and reciprocity underpin its structure:

"For if I am like you, you are necessarily similar to me." Therefore, the same likeness, which impels me to love you, as you love me, You also oblige me to love me. "

> Camões: the amateur becomes the beloved thing and in himself owns the desired part.
In fact, as long as I love you, I find myself a lover in you, while I am thinking of myself, and I recover myself by myself. I lost myself in my negligence, keeping myself in you, the same thing that they do in me, for after I have lost myself, if for myself I recover, for you I have myself, I have you before and more than myself, and I am nearer to you than to me, since I bind myself precisely to you. "

Three people (me - you and us): the lover and the beloved are only mirrors that keep the imperfect image, that is what brings them together. You must understand the depth of this good.

(Reason reversed, love in practice is always the reverse as Cazuza says in Ritual)
Despite marriage lovers do not know exactly what they are looking for in each other. They always want more, but they no longer know what this means anymore. They suffer when they love but do not know why they suffer. They miss the imponderable. Likeness and reciprocity do not solve this divine mystery.
Pure knowledge: to free oneself from the body to take care of the soul. Move from surface to deep. The address of the man is the other. As the sun draws the flowers, the moon moves the waters and mars commands the winds, we also suffer the impact of the beauty, which is the face of God, and back the soul by an intrinsic law of similarity.

Make him thirsty. Source of sources. A sublime encounter between love and the thing loved. A project of redemption where the Good and the One coincide, the efficient cause and the final cause.


The soul is the verb of the intellect.

The beautiful is the preface to the good.

"When the soul is taken from us, we can only love" C.D.A.



I'm looking for something quieter, nothing that upsets the night nor tears the day.

Facefuck Zuck Zuck Boom

https://tecnologia.uol.com.br/noticias/redacao/2018/04/11/audiencia-de-zuckeberg-tambem-foi-aula-de-como-usar-a-internet.htm

https://www1.folha.uol.com.br/mundo/2018/04/zuckerberg-volta-ao-congresso-dos-eua-para-depor.shtml

https://www1.folha.uol.com.br/colunas/clovisrossi/2018/04/privacidade-de-zuckerberg-vale-mais-do-que-a-de-seus-incautos-usuarios.shtml

My Journey

And then my soul took my body for the unknown.. she said we gonna find that Love you seek. At least we need to see if that exists. And if she wants you too everything is gonna conspire in our favor. And if the door opens is because it’s our door. And magic exists for those who believe on it. So me and my soul took this intuitive map following senses through the years learning the languages of the souls. And here I am across the Ocean. Just me and my soul. I don’t have expectations I have feelings and some hope.. it’s all intuitive. And It’s my journey. My journey alone. And even here be cause I don’t want to interact with no one, the other two in the house decided to get me out of my already payed room such as in that teen movie “Mean Girls” a full grown man of 57 years I did not want to mingle or drive him around he was rude to me decided to join forces with some stupid woman that said to the owner of the house I rented my private room that I am depressed and want to live early so she can sleep at my room. She rented a small room outside and the vile man the office. He spent one afternoon with me learned something about me and told her everything last night they stood from 21:00 to 2:00 talking about how I should behave. They don’t know me but feel entitled. If they wanted the room why didn’t they rented it on Airbnb. A grown man acting like a teenager girl, a young woman that throw sheets on the floor and have no respect for others. Hum.. That’s my holiday journey. I rented a car, a rented a cozy private room. I am don’t need to interact with people I have nothing in common just because it coincided that we rented different room in the same house. If I wanted company I would have invited a friend, I am not a Uber driver, why they don’t do what I did and rent a car for themselves instead of expecting me to drive them around? I did not came here to spend time with them. I much prefer sleep, masturbate, go to the gym, ride alone listening music. I don’t like people talking on my head. I  a quiet person. I don’t have to interact with them. See.. even when one pays everything, is minding their own business people are envy and want their room, their place. 

Envy is a terrible thing the woman lied about me. She told the owner of the house that I was depressed and was gonna leave earlier. I can be depressed in my payed private room. She rented the cheapest one. See.. I feel sorry for her. Cause she obviously was poorly educated. Where I come from people respect others privacy. Other’s life. Never been to a situation like that. And that man talks too much he is annoying. I did not drove him Sunday morning to Austrian wine so he can impressed the owner’s house. He was being rude to me all night long. I did not came here to drive them around. Rent a fucking car. He is a grown man working here. He can pay. Why didn’t he rented the most comfortable room? Cause he is a cheap bastard. She is a liar.. I don’t want to be close to her.

People have no education, no respect for others. 

And I don’t have to interact or mingle I payed for the room. That’s all. I don’t have to give explanations.

FaceFuck

https://www1.folha.uol.com.br/mercado/2018/03/como-pesquisadores-usam-os-likes-do-facebook-para-influenciar-seu-pensamento.shtml

https://g1.globo.com/economia/tecnologia/noticia/comissao-legislativa-dos-eua-diz-que-vai-chamar-zuckerberg-para-depor.ghtml 

https://epocanegocios.globo.com/amp/Mundo/noticia/2018/03/apos-escandalo-do-facebook-onu-quer-debater-uso-de-dados-pessoais-na-rede.html

How Facebook influences your thoughts.. be smart GET THE FUCK OUT THERE

🔥They removed a fucking PAINTING 4x times. Without checking.. this is a fucking TYRANNY. I hope FACEBOOK and INSTAGRAM get really FUCKED by the Organization of United Nations. Yesterday Zuck already admitted the “leak” read SELL of private information of the Facebook users. Congratulations Zuck. You are really fucked. Rich but fucked. I hope this shit goes undervalue.. and you all shitty heads with you censorshit lose your asshole jobs. And plus.. You cannot control people’s life. It’s unethical.. this fucking algorithms read informations and know if you are vegetarian, gay, right handed or left handed, if you like sports, who you tend to vote, if your eyes are blue, if you are black, asian or latin american. It reads if you have lots of money or if you are in debt. It reads all your private lifestyle soul informations and SELL it to any kind of brand. You, me, us, everyone are, am, is.. a marionette on their hands to obtain more money, to afford their private jets. While we struggle here with FUCKING ART. TRY THAT YOU GONNA FALL. I already know I am at the shaddow ban room. #fuckinstagram #fuckyouinstagram #finstagram #instashaddow #fuckfacebook

Correios Again

Órgão ou Entidade: CGU – Ministério da Transparência e Controladoria-Geral da União

Cidadão: Daphne Csenger

Tipo de Manifestação: Denúncia

Prazo para Atendimento: 11/04/2018

Gostaria de saber como os Correios podem “perder” uma encomenda após a liberação da Receita Federal? EH002458235SG
RU780215302CN manif 87126749
RG815430754IN manif 91508706
RG860350924IN

Aonde estão as minhas encomendas?

Por que demorou 6 meses para me informar da perda durante o fluxo postal? Isso é o nome genérico para furto e impunidade.

Os CORREIOS sendo um MONOPÓLIO do sistema de entregas no país, um órgão público deve ser mais transparente. Gostaria de utilizar a lei de acesso à informação (Lei nº 12.527, de 18 de novembro de 2011) para resolver o meu problema.

Não entendo como uma encomenda simplesmente desaparece e nada é feito. E digo mais entrei no site ReclameAqui uma das ferramentas de soluções entre Consumidores e Prestadores de serviços e há mais 60.000 reclamações e nenhuma sequer foi respondida. O único jeito é esperar os 40 dias e fazer uma manifestação que nunca é respondida no prazo. Para depois esperar mais uma semana e receber a mesma mensagem automática da OUVIDORIA DOS CORREIOS.
Todas essas encomendas estão sem resposta, sem fluxo, sem chegar em minha residência. Os Correios não resolvem e não informam os consumidores devidamente. Pedem que para os objetos extraviados seja pedido o reembolso do vendedor. Caracterizo a má administração dos serviços de entrega e o mau do cargo como má fé em relação aos vendedores de outros países. Eles também serão reembolsados pela “perda dos Correios” quem paga no final das contas, por todas as encomendas extraviadas? O cidadão brasileiro.
É crime tomar posse de correspondência de outros cidadãos.

 Gostaria de uma solução mais inteligível que não zombe dos meus direitos como cidadã, com dignidade, respeito.

Atenciosamente,

DAPHNE CSENGER

OS CORREIOS

http://blogdocardoso.com/correios-saiba-como-ter-sua-reclamacao-lida-e-respondida-pra-valer/

Acabei de fazer um cadastro e uma reclamação para a OUVIDORIA DA UNIÃO contra os CORREIOS. Se a empresa que é um monopólio federal não toma uma providência eu tomo. Se o pacote extravia mesmo depois de passar pela receita federal e ser entregue aos CORREIOS, o mesmo demora 114 dias uteis dentro 161 dias totais para informar que a encomenda extraviou e a unica medida é pedir o reembolso direto com site vendedor. E se alguém for receber indenização são os vendedores não os consumidores. Ah é? Foi criado um mecanismo de impunidade. Os Correios lavam as mãos. COMIGO NÃO.

A minha manifestação está aqui:

Descrição da Manifestação: Fiz uma compra no site chinês AliExpress no dia 10 de Outubro de 2017. Dia 27 de Novembro de 2017 ela foi liberada sem impostos entrega em 40 dias úteis. Se passaram 161 dias corridos e 114 dias úteis. Entrei em contato pelo site dos Correios e fiz uma manifestação que foi respondida muito depois do prazo dizendo que a minha encomenda havia sido extraviada e não constava no Fluxo postal. Para minha admiração a encomenda desapareceu e os Correios enviaram a mesma informação através da Ouvidoria a qual só se tem acesso depois de uma resposta da manifestação, a resposta automática e mesma dizendo: que o objeto foi extraviado e que somente o remetente tem direito a uma indenização. Quem fez a compra quer receber a compra. Isso cria um mecanismo de impunidade. A encomenda some dentro do sistema de entrega dos Correios. Os Correios enviam uma mensagem automática ao consumidor dizendo que o mesmo deve cobrar reembolso do remetente. Somente o remetente da China, dos EUA da Suíça etc tem direito a uma indenização. Como os funcionários sabem que raramente os remetentes podem e vão cobrar os Correios está criado um mecanismo de furto e impunidade. Como que uma calça, no caso da encomenda RU780215302CN (manifestação 87126749) pode ter desaparecido de dentro dos sistemas dos Correios? E por que demorou 114 dias para notarem. E por que nada foi feito para solucionar o mistério? Amanhã tenho uma audiência no PROCON-MG. E depois disso feito devo abrir um processo no Juizado Especial Pequenas Causas de Relações de Consumo. Os CORREIOS sendo um MONOPÓLIO do sistema de entregas no país, um órgão público deve ser mais transparente. Gostaria de utilizar a lei de acesso à informação (Lei nº 12.527, de 18 de novembro de 2011) para resolver o meu problema. Sendo que à constar nem as contas de cartão, de celular, internet, etc estão chegando em dia ou sequer chegam em minha residência. Moro em Belo Horizonte num bairro considerado nobre, Bairro de Lourdes. O prefeito mora neste bairro também. Meu cep: 30170-080. Não entendo como uma encomenda simplesmente desaparece e nada é feito. E digo mais entrei no site ReclameAqui uma das ferramentas de soluções entre Consumidores e Prestadores de serviços e há mais 60.000 reclamações e nenhuma sequer foi respondida. O único jeito é esperar os 40 dias e fazer uma manifestação que nunca é respondida no prazo. Para depois esperar mais uma semana e receber a mesma mensagem automática da OUVIDORIA DOS CORREIOS. Gostaria de uma solução mais inteligível que não zombe dos meus direitos como cidadã, com dignidade, respeito.

Atenciosamente,

DAPHNE CSENGER


Órgão ou Entidade: CGU – Ministério da Transparência e Controladoria-Geral da União

Cidadão: Daphne Csenger

Tipo de Manifestação: Denúncia

Prazo para Atendimento:09/04/2018

I am my own boss too

We have deal with desventures and all kind of feelings with compassion and love. And a dispassionate love towards everyone.. only love can change every situation and turn it into something else. I am angry too and sometimes sad and deluded but in soul I am unbreakable.

I am not in a competition. I never was in a competition. I don’t compete. I am what I am. And that’s good enough. I’m my own boss also. But my grandpa I obey him and my aunt we negotiate besides that nobody pays me any salary I’m not employee.. I am a free spirit. My soul is free

I save money and pay for all my trips.. my food, my photographs, my choices. It’s my own money. I don’t take advantage of people or of a position I’m in. I am a fair person. I can’t stand lies, lack of character.. I fight my own demons to be a good one.

don’t mistake my kindness for weakness.. don’t mistake me for a fool. Everyone that did me wrong.. I made them face their shit too. Were I pass I bring truth with me.

I fight my demons to be a fair person.. to not make misjudgment.. I’m in a spiritual change for four years now I fight my addictions. I carry pain inside me sometimes I want to explode but my soul is indestructible. If you hurt me I’m gonna be fair when we met.

At least I make an effort to understand and to be loving.. because when you are free you carry responsibility too. And see the world in a different perspective. And when you are free and alone you have to take care of your heart.. your motivations to not fall apart.

I trust my photography work.. the integrity of my work. Everything I do you gonna find my heart and my soul. You gonna find what I love. Don’t misinterpret me. Don’t take me as fool. Fool is use drugs and believe in what you see while you high. That’s stupidity. ✨🤙🏼✨

I don’t have an entourage to spoil me and lift me up. Alone I’m the one in constant work with my own soul. It’s a work. To not fall  apart or be corrupted by any desire that does not belong to my original soul. Not lust not money no professional promises I don’t want distractions.

I don’t want to be famous. I want to be honest. I want to be fair. I don’t want 100 friends. I don’t want alcohol or cigarettes. I want to love unconditionally without the fear of being hurt. Without the fear of being cheated and lied. I want you to be true..

I wanted to work for Vignoli he died last year. I wanted to learn the surrealism with him.. nobody touched my soul like him he believed all my dreams and encouraged me to follow them. He had galleries all over the world. And that’s how I planned to be close to you.

I never intended to work for you to get close to you and by that be your lover. When there is a money relation involved things are not very clear. For me that’s nor plan. I want to know you to know you to love your eyes because I am such an unconditional fan. I always admire.

One can have the same dream for years and pursue it with all they are amd all they have. One can dream amd work for it. I can dream to kiss you.... and can wish it. And no one in the world dead or alive can take that from me. No one can steal my dreams. And I can fantasize..

🔥🔥🔥🖤♥️🔥Although you deserve it.. my fantasies are more sweet than you imagine 🔥🌹♥️🖤🤪💙🔥

Dames don’t bargain

🔥 I don’t want to be scared of you. You are supposed to be the best part of life. See, when I do things I put all of me on it. I don’t want to be hurt when I’m with my heart open. I don’t want to be scared of you again or time to time. Understand too. We need comprehension. Love is peaceful, warm but is different than comfort. And drugs are poison. Not peaceful. The man in peace with himself doesn’t want to get in a war with nobody. You don’t make a war and claim for peace. To kill to stop violence is stupid. If you cannot be in peace and alone.. you can never love anyone else.. if you looking for disquiet.. you are not looking for love. 🖤 You don’t realize that you always let people steal your peace of mind with the excuse of a challenge you are always bargaining the love you achieve for a thrill to impress someone you don’t even care more than day more than a quick hype. You let your love freeze because you are busy entertaining nobody who is there full of nothing to share stealing your love from your soul and you believe nobody noticed. That you can give your backs and shake your shoulders while you Up. People love you no matter what. But that’s when you lost your soul selling your heart to strangers wasting your love with sarcastic jokes.. become superficial that you are not being natural, original or essential you are killing the roots. You bargain your love because people like when you’re one of them on the sarcasm. You bargained your love because you were tempted to believe that quiet and warm is bad for you. And you bargained to be unquiet again to have to recover all in vicious cycle. Lost and found.🔥

About the subject taboo: Suicide

So I asked too a long time ago what happens with the soul when a person commits suicide at the Spiritual School.. the answer is:

You have things to do and solve in your life, it’s your Path. You only dies after those tasks. If you avoid or commit mistakes you have to reincarnate to try to solve all over again. Your life have a pre-destinated route but you have “freewill” take is gonna shape your Path.

When you decide to extinguish your life before finishing your tasks you are just killing one of your bodies (you have 4) the physical one. So person gets stuck on a non-time dimension cause only the physical material body is submitted to time and fades..

the soul stays on that broken momentum living that decision of many perspectives but are not allowed to go to a next fase until the remaining vital energy is released from the soul. So if it’s stipulated that my life is gonna last 80 years and I kill myself..

I’m gonna be in a loop correspondent of 40 human years until the energy dissipate and I can go to another fase. But I did not completed my tasks from this life at my Spiritual Path so I  have to come back and pay all the aggravation

And you cannot kill yourself twice so the loop is pretty boring.. amd the aggravation is inconceivable.. but we have many many lives and I for exemple, probably can have done that a few lives ago.. cause I have the impression in my soul I know how it feels like.


So the human experience includes a lot of shit such as if you never been gay you are gonna be in a certain life. Everyone is gonna be black, yellow, extraterrestrial, so if you feel you already know all that shit, You desire ardently with your soul a way out of the Samsara Wheel

How is that?

How is a dad that doesn’t come to your mother funeral and appear only 20 days after and say: - your took advantage of all the men she had to my grandma, although he never payed alimony or even had a job at the time while my mom worked in 3 places? Radio, tv and a store?

all my friends at the time noticed and said between them: we gonna have take care of her the dad did not show up is this serious, the dad did nor show up at the cemetery? the flight from Rio is only 40min and plus when his coisins Maria Lucia and Maria Beatriz died he went to.

Daphne is so rebellious so untamed, bla bla bla, really? Why is it so? He did not came to hug and comfort me, to hold my hand and say: Everything is gonna be alright I am here. Instead of it, he considered he was free from the alimony as mom died would never be charged.

He says he is not that kind of person.. what da fuck kind of person he is then? A fucking asshole! Which his mother still greases his hair like he was a marvelous even doing nothing to help anyone. Everyone covers him up, cheers him. He is rich asshole

*Asshole in Portuguese means babaca. Just in case he gets lost in translation and understand it literally.. Waterloo is not Toilet Water, ok?

Instagram is a communication tool

I only posted paintings and drawings no photographs and according to the rules, nudity on paintings and drawings are OK. So this time there is no reason. Please, consider. My account is what fulfill my routine. I am a 34y old woman that lives and take care of her grandparents one is 97 and the other is 94 years old. I live with them since I was 2. I am a lesbian and I cannor have someone due to the condition of living with them. That’s my only distraction. Besides that I can travel once in a while and my aunt takes care of them she is a doctor. Without my account that I dedicate to female art I have no other distractions or social media. I’m having an anxiety attack. It’s not the first time i’m deactivated but the other times I posted photographs also. This time only paintings. I am a photographer and also an art student and I don’t have a back up of the images. I’m a Madonna fan that’s my only motivation. I really love her. Please. Consider that. The human side of people, the feelings. Not just a number, an algorithm, another account in millions. Consider that, some people lean on Instagram accounts to be breath, to dream, to keep living. I want to meet people I only have access through Instagram. I rely on my account to meet them. Nowadays people rely on their accounts as it is their bank accounts. People make friends. And if you have a friend you have everything. Consider that, humanly.


It’s very humiliating and degrading depend on machine and other people that envision profits if can or cannot communicate through Instagram, which is a fucking company not a community. On a community people can opine on Instagram algorithms and few rich people take decisions.

And that’s is the 1984, the real Big Brother inspecting amd deciding for you what and how you can or cannot communicate. Pay attention 🚨

Communication is the key of Life, of Love.

Mastercard read you as algorithms and send those phishing ads cause they know you boight a house and need a new tv, new fridge.. the geolocate you and when you are in front of a store they send you an advertise! How creepy clever. And you do not consider being controlled?

 https://www.uol/economia/especiais/entrevista-uol-lideres-joao-pedro-paro-neto-mastercard.htm#prevendo-sua-proxima-compra


https://m.tecmundo.com.br/amp/redes-sociais/123954-ex-funcionario-revela-cotidiano-revisor-violencia-odio-facebook.htm


Will anyone give me an answer about my account? It’s really disturbing and I am feeling anguish. If you never experienced that is sort of am anxiety attack. Is this really necessary, there are only paintings and drawings posted on my account. Who has a problem with female nude body should get treatment. Do you feel violently attracted to paintings or sculptures pn a museum? That’s just presumptuous, deprive my account like that.

Surfaced Feeling

I just remembered the day my father came to my house said I  a social parasite and that he would put me in a mental institution and sell all my properties to pay for my life there. Such a pleasant person he is. He wish he could punch my face..

some pleasant remembrances are coming to the top what for? When it’s my mom’s date of death I was in court with him he sued me and then removed the process one day before the last audience a bit ashamed cause the game wasn’t flowing to his side..

He played to the judge that he barely knew this “lady” and the judge said.. she is not a lady she is your daughter. I’m used here to deal with killers, burglars, first time I see a dad suing his own daughter without trying to fix it at home. Asshole.

Wasn’t that much I said he was promiscuous and used drugs, my opinion but I had no propfs and kinda put it on my blog. But he decided to sue me. He is an asshole and absent enormous asshole

I tried everything humanly possoble.. many times I called him and asked why you never call me to know how I feel, how I am? He said he is not like that.. bahaha! And someone who is indifferent to his own only daughter (he had no son either) is what? Is for me to think what?

My whole life he ignored me even when I was a child and my mom was still alive he had to pick me up to go to the club for 2h every Sunday I stood alone most of the time he was always w his friends or girlfriend.. He never gave me real attention, real love, real support

If I have the impression he used drugs or were promiscuous was through the exemples he showed me when I was a child. I know addicted people and they act the same. And I never experienced other fathers being like he is to me to my friends or people I met.

He like to throw at my face I am not part of his life. I am not eligible, that I am always inappropriat, inadequate, wrong. I tried all. He was never gentle, or did something for me to see me happy. To be with me. His mom used to like me but then she saw how rich he is so he is great

Rich people are never wrong.. She was always inadequate.. really since I was born? 🤔 I used to try.. then to hate.. and now I ignore most of the time but some feelings come to the surface like a vomit 🤢

My life is a f*cking joke!

So last week out of 2 I spent in NY got my AirBnb cancelled and had to spend the cash I brought to eat, go to spectates and transportation on payment for my other host cash in hand cause the Korean girl looked at me and said: - You have too many bags. I had one small bag that came back as a hand bag and something like a schoolbag with my leans and lamps from my photograph gear. I had $50,00 dollars out of the $900,00 I brought in total. To spend with that with everything payed was enough. But $50,00 dollars was hilarious.

So I found out that my biological father who is very wealthy is suing my dead painter friend wich was my art mentor. See, I had a dream and he listened to me, believed on me. And I had the plan to work for him, with him. He had galleries all around the world.

Why my biological father is suing my dead beloved painter friend Fernando Vignoli??
Don’t I have reasons enough??
I loved that man as father as a mentor something my biological father never was close to that..
someone have enough money to spend on Art.. 100.000,00 but to help his daughter NAH .. f*

It’s a public process anyone can access it. He probably ordered a panel and Vignoli works were very expensive, to show off right in the middle of the worst crisis here in Brasil.

But he, my biological father, denied me a job, he was always  rude and unpleasant with me, why why a person like him get to be cool in life and I have to pass through emotionally hardways of ups and downs? He never wanted to be a dad that’s very clear but it is so unfair.. he never payed the alimony contract of 43% percent of his wages to afford my creation. It took me many many years to even a buy an used popular car. Took me two years to buy professional camera. And to remind that I take care of my two grandparents that took care of me since I was 2 years old. Don’t I deserve be happy too?

He enriched himself with the money he never gave me by LAW. He have golden watches and travel to Switzerland, Denmark, Noriega, Sweden, England, France, Spain, US, etc and I save a lot the whole year for a few days in NY.

It’s not fucking fair.
He ignores the the concept of family, father, love and care. He ignores moral, or values or he is so ignorant he denies all of that to his only child. He is peacock showing off to a sort of society people that met him along his ganacious way he is powerful and rich.

He is rich because he is an irresponsible greedy adult. He only cares about himself and no one else.

What is Communication ?

I always had that question: what are the limits between intellect and communication?

what's intuition and how that really works? How to precise it? Is that part of the limit between Intellect and Communication?

Communication is an exchange of information in any kind of level, expressions, contact, emotions, intellectual, etc, between two beings

am I trying to define the ineffable? and what cannot be explained God, Love and the human Soul.

Problems with AirBnb

Hi Gregg, I cannot afford going to a hotel, If I have $500,00 dollars and spend $200,00 in a hotel is not a smart way to solve my situation. So I payed informally Alvin, my first host $450,00 dollars and he gave me a huge discount cause I would not be able to afford everything with the money I had here. This money I had $500,00 left was to afford my expenses with food, transport, a concert, water, this essentials. I ordered the refund on my credit card from that Eun cancellation. What I am asking you is for some indemnity for the trouble I'm having it's already 12h trying to solve this. You work from a Company that sells a service the Company must have some responsibility over the guests that are already in a trip. I am trying to save my vacation. I made a huge effort to be here now. Saved money for one whole year. I payed insurance that unfortunately doesn't cover Airbnb cancellations. Doesn't exist an insurance for that. I cannot afford stay in NY with only $50,00 dollars that's not vacation I programmed. I am so organized that I have all receipts noted in a note book, I bought so in advance a mobile traveler number, so I have internet and a way to make phone calls. How are gonna help me?

My hostage I already payed in cash to Alvin. I need cash to afford my last week here. And I am not treating you, In asking how to save this vacation while I am on it. Because, when I arrive back, if your team do not support me here, I am gonna take the Law to solve. 

att,

Daphne Csenger

What a Queen means

I was thinking that Madonna released the sexuality as a power. It is an energy some people knows how to use. She mastered it set women free.

and that's why is she gonna be the Queen for a long timeline she has causes. Behind the other artists there quite nothing just appearances.

Madonna always had a subjective intention. She know her energy and creates and dares to provoke questions while the rest are an echo.

they don't even know how to canalize their intentions.. A Queen born a Queen she was never a princess of anything she was straight up Queen.

she started modestly knowing that if she made in the of the board with her causes and intentions she would rule the world as a Queen she is.

the bottle scene on Truth or Dare, gonna talk about it just once.. it was a tabu. Madonna crashes all the tabus. She throws on people's face

Everyone, does, did or gonna do to please someone. Mostly is not worthy and not good. Women also don't like to perform that but..

If you love someone you want to do that.. See I am a lesbian and I tried men, of course. But never loved them. To me is degrading.

Like everything without love is, empty. So I am a lesbian because I want to perform that blow job with a woman. Madonna broke the barrels.

Men want women to do but recriminate if they speak about it. Well without love no one likes doing that. I don't. Everyone did or gonna do.

We all try sexual stuff untill we figure it out what we want for life. Some people gonna have babies, others like to exchange lovers..

ofhers like experiencing things forever, others want just one love to love unconditionally for the rest of lives.

I am the romantic kind of one love for life. If is not love not gonna do. I already tried all that I wanted to know myself enough..

Definitely a lesbian, no male blowjobs again, sorry men, I really don't like that. I understand who does. Just one woman is enough for me.

I am not a swinger. I am not gonna give birth to a child. I don't intend to, but I love a woman. That's enough.

I am monogamic I don't believe in many lovers at once.. such as balls on juggler's hand. If love someone tell them.

Don't play games. They never work people can feel, a straight answer can help you to make a friend and go on another search for the true one.

About Royalty

There is never gonna be another Queen on music after #Madonna as we don't have monarchs anymore.. presidents come and go but royalty..

#madonna scandalized everyone doing what she felt in her heart kissing, singing, dancing, composing, creating, fashion, everything..

every woman in this planet had her life affected by her influence somehow. Every woman wanted to do a thing or two she has done..

try a woman, a black boyfriend, a gay friend, fashion trend, talk about sex openly, dare to dream, to be themselves, name it..

and she still does dancing romantic exciting music, directs movies, is a mother, create trends, have political views, cultured, is dynamic

and all those artists don't last cause they don't have those genuine causes.. their music don't changed intrinsically people's life..

I am passionate about her ever since I first saw her listened what a tremendous beautiful force of nature, what an energy.. #madonna

Let's try some altruism next time

ok last time I say but I was reflecting on that my father stood 1 day w his mother at the hospital was his obligation and she felt honored.

is so so hard him doing something altruistic something for others that she felt honored. people are used to praise him for doing something

someone should not be praised for doing his obligations or the right thing. He is never gonna learn how to consider others feelings.

I take care of two people very very old 94 and 97 and some people believes I do nothing all day..

It's exhausting they are deaf have to say same thing close to each one's ear at least 5x EACH I have patience with then it's like kids

It's like having two kids instead of growing they are getting each time more dependent of help of care of patience

me and my aunt decided we are gonna take care of them as long we are able to. They were very loving with us. They deserve love back.

I learned to give value to other things in life than a career or just money.. they are much more things in life worth living too.

Real Rebellious

being alive, for me, is already an act of rebellion.. according to my sperm donor I shouldn't be born.

Very Unpleasant

My father's mother called me yesterday to tell me my coison Lucas is getting marriage how proud she is of him. Lucas should have been a diplomat..

but she told me that but not inviting me and also remembered that she gave all her jewelry to Lucas's mom who is gonna give his wife a gift

but to me the Law applied is that if I am a lesbian I should not tell anyone not even alone in my room back to the mirror w lights off..🤔

Her voice is echoing in my head like a bug that entered your ear and you want it out.

In London when my father went to pick me up he said to me he is gonna leave all his fortune to Lucas. He is that kind of asshole.. 😃👌💩 I was 19 and around 9 month after losing my mother.

I had no camera he had one and said to me I could lend you this so you photograph the city but I'm not going to. (Before the digital era of cameras)

and I have almost none picutres of there. Only some friend that visited me and took some tue same that photographed my college graduation.


And I don't want to go to any married if the idea was to get me jealous went wrong got me angry amd disturbed how stupid people are.

Oh his mother had an stroke and stood 9 days at the hospital. She said he was there for just one day because his brother asked him to and that he stood all the time on his phone. He wasn't really there. Well, when I had a motorcycle accident and broke my ankle and had to decide either I put or not a pin  he  never even called me to know if I was ok. A friend that is personal trainer said me to not put a pin that I could heal with exercises. And I did healed with exercises and I stood alone at the hospital. Not even a text message or call.

Between us here, dear reader.. do ya think that if was I in love to be married to another woman.. would be such a party and jewelry to the wife to be? Compliments from grandma? Daddy paying and proud of my life?

Why don't ya get a job? Really?

I want to brown bread, queijo minas frescal and Queensberry jam red fruits.. when I had no money in Rio I had that twice a day + wheyprotein

For 3 months in a flat in Botafogo beach full of cockroaches was like a "concil area" pacified old building with policemen on it 30m square

I had a toaster.. my dad denied me a job in Macae on third month living w roaches I went there to ask him a secretary job

he went to the bus station very angry and suly with me said if I were a man he would punch my face and put me to colect his dog shit but

as a woman I should go back to my grandparents home I would never fit in his house or environment what an asshole!! 💩the roaches were nicer

My father is an asshole! I have so many situations he was harsh and unpleasant amd humiliated me that he is a disgusting person 💩💩

cockroaches were funny very like Joe and The Cockroaches they communicate but that's a long story.. they are definable nicer..

yes sometimes the shit cause come to the surface I share it and then I find a way to overcome it..  once he denied me some help for food..

what am asshole.. looking my friends being dads now mine biological get everyday more disgusting see people loving their child..

he is a shit person only good to himself.

Weird day .. I believe my father sent hos mother to call me after ignoring me for almost 4 years to investigate me.. such a weird feeling.  

she ignored me when I needed her the most and now out of no where called me.. to talk but I cannot talk about him.. weird.


If I depended on him to survive I hadn't.. he doesn't nurtured any kind of affection or love for me.. weird fella.. they ignore people there.

Was heavy for me carry his name through life till I understand that I am what I am and I cannot change that but I can love me instead.

people think they can ignore and humiliate others because they are who they are I am not like that.

the Laws that are applied on Lucas are not the same applied on Daphne. Just saying..

Harmony

"Give, and it shall be given you: good measure, pressed up, shaken, overflowing, shall be poured out in your bosom: for with what measure ye mete also ye shall be measured." Lucas 6:38

The student should start giving, not asking. Only then will the secret of the overflowing measure be revealed to you.

What does she have to give?

1. her heart
2. her soul
3. her devotion
4. her absolute faith
5. her intelligence
6. her faculties
7. her I

" Dai, e vos será dado: boa medida, recalcada, sacudida, transbordante, será derramada  em vosso regaço; pois com a medida com que medirdes também sereis medidos." Lucas 6:38

O aluno deve começar dando, e não o pedindo. Somente então o segredo da medida transbordante lhe será revelado.

Nuctemeron The Second Hour

NUCTEMRON • APOLONIO OF TIANA - Jan Van Rijckenborgh

SECOND HOUR

Through duality the pisces of the zodiac sing praise to God, the fiery serpents intertwine around the caduceus, and the lightning becomes harmonious.

Mediante a dualidade os peixes do zodíaco entoam louvor a Deus, as serpentes ígneas entrelaçam-se em torno do caduceu, e o relâmpago torna-se harmonioso.

Na Primeira Hora de Apolonio de Tiana, pudemos ver como todas as tensões magnéticas desarmoniosas, incompreendidas e, por conseguinte, desgovernadas, que se manifestam no microcosmo, poderão ser conduzidas à unidade pelo discipulado gnóstico. Elas perdem suas características negativas de maldade e ira e põem-se completamente a serviço do candidato aos mistérios gnósticos.

Cada tensão magnética com que o ser aural do homem se encontra sobrecarregado foi e é causada por determinada ação, em um período de vida de uma das personalidades que viveram no microcosmo. Quando todas essas tensões magnéticas - livres de maldade e ira e de suas reações eventuais - se colocam a serviço do ser humano que está vivendo atualmente no microcosmo, verifica-se a liberação de um imenso tesouro de experiências, de purificação e de conhecimentos, que torna cada candidato mil vezes mais forte do que seria explicável pelo estado de vida comum.

À Primeira Hora ajusta-se agora a Segunda Hora:

Mediante a dualidade, os pisces do zodíaco entoam louvor a Deus, as serpentes ígneas entrelaçam-se em torno do caduceu, e o relâmpago torna-se harmonioso.

Para poderes compreender essas palavras, deveis ter bem presente que a Primeira Hora quis dizer, isto é, que mantendo uma orientação inequívoca e estando sobre o tapete, o candidato consegue o autodomínio e, mediante essa unidade do ser, os demônios no ser perdem a maldade e a ira. Agora, de maneira fundamental, o candidato já não está preso à vida dialética inferior. Ele está livre, então, para poder trilhar a senda. Essa liberdade fundamental somente é possível com base na já mencionada transformação do demônio no ser humano: o subtrair-se da garra caótica das tensões magnéticas, e a ordenação e transformação resultantes.

Tão logo um alumo se tenha libertado dessa garra, ele é confrontado de maneira direta com o campo astral onde vive, com o campo de seu nascimento sidereal, em suma, com o grande campo de vida astral da dialética, pois a oposição não deve ser vencida e ultrapassada somente no próprio microcosmo, mas também no grande mundo, onde vivem o microcosmo e a personalidade.

Nesse campo de vida sideral, com os éons aí dominantes, manifesta-se a força da dualidade, as influências das forças gêmeas da natureza, devido âs quais tudo na natureza visível é impelido para seu oposto, o que esclarece amplamente o jogo da alternância contínua da dialética.

É uma lei natural vigente no campo de nascimento sideral que quando alguém principia com alegria e entusiasmo, em dado momyé tomado e dominado pelo pessimismo e pela tristeza. Não é sem razão - ao contrário - que isso acontece: toda uma série de fenômenos no grande jogodas alternâncias dá motivo para isso em abundância. Assim, alternam-se continuamente. e em todos os aspectos, a crença e a descrença, a certeza e a dúvida, a luz e as trevas.

MADONNA DAY

Madonna is the contemporany muse of Aphrodite for me. So if I had a golden apple to present my favorite woman from all the beauties in the world yes, Madonna gets the Golden Apple.

To The Man Who Sold The World

https://youtu.be/fregObNcHC8

Father's Day in Brasil goes to my Grandad

My grandpa took care of me since I was two years old. And I just remembered what my biological father said 20 days afrer my mother's funeral when he finally came to make a visit to my grandparents with his wife/business partner, he said to my grandparents: " -Margot, took advantage of all the men she got involved."

My mother worked in 3 jobs to sustain a family and he well, he couldn't hold one in. Due to his "bad habits". And he had the courage to say that about her. My brother's father used to hit her, beating her in front of my grandma that took her back from Santos (the city they lived in SP) to Belo Horizonte. And I believe my brpther is agressive with me also due to his dad that gave him the "good exempe".

So he, my father that never was charged in Alimony to sustain me or even help my mother, he never payed a percentage of what he should and say those things. He used to humiliate me saying that I don't belong to his Status Quo. That I don't belong to his social environment. He is sort of a classy businessman wealthy and he never gave me any support  as a provider he should have been by the Law. And I am a girl. Usually dads have this humiliating behavior with male sons. But nop, my biological father believes I am less person than he is, and I cannot understand how can you put a child on this world to treat them badly, to humiliate, to ignore, to pretend they are not part of your existence, to not teach them how to be happy.. teach tehm that the purpose in life is not just keep yourself alive and support your own self. Is to be happy and enjpy every moment you can.. love and share love. He is wealthy have business companies. He have pleasure in treat me bad. So if I could today I would give him some sperm (of a man with a good nature) in a bottle and say: Well, now I owe you nothing. You gave my mom sperm, I'm giving it back to you.

I'm the fire starter 🔥🔥🔥 and I am the one who burns every night and go through ashes till it's blue again in the morning and new fire begins

but you are the cause there is fire inside me if you could open me spiritually to see you would feel me burning in a blue fire my soul shine

for you I burn in blue 💙

My Soul Burns

🔥Artist: Vincent Giarrano • I love you .. ❤️ I have a pain in my soul it burns and it burns and it cannot be set free from this body I am if you don't touch me.. you are the only cure. 

how long lasts forever maybe just a moment but this touch can release my soul from the body I am and then I am ready..

and then I am ready to go and never to return.

I hope the exit is joyful and i hope never to return.

Frida Kahlo

🔥 

Why I dislike b-days let's see

When I was around 3 and lived still w my parents mom and dad used to send me to the playground to have sex, so was for me go at with kids.

was a small flat of 2 rooms so I had to go and most of the time I stood walking around alone. When the boys were there they used to touch me.

So I told my dad and he always went to talk to the boys parents. Once they brough me to the doorman toilet and took off their clothes and laydown on top of me. I felt so guilt. The other day I had a kind of period and pooped my trousers. This day my parents decided to send me to live with my grandparents. I always felt guilt and sweated about my soul out of my body. My father used to remind me and say how he used  to "defend" me from the boys deceiving himself of how a hero he was underestimating that I knew I was going down for them to have sex.

I was only free of this story when I once doing my homework told my grandma and she said to leave it overcome it was a long ago.

I sweated my hands and feet cold. And still today when I am anxious or worried I sweat my soul out of my body.

See I dislike b-day because shit always come to the surface. I was a lonely and unhappy child. I learned to love my loneliness when..

I understood that it could be turned into freedom. But not the negligent freedom my parents had when they left me to be taken cared of..

I always felt I had to leave to scape I had no place to be. I hadn't the dignity to stay I was bad, dirty.

i tried to scape to London fail, and I tried to scape to Rio and asked my father help he never took me out pf the bus station.

He said: if you were a man I would slap your face and put you to collect the shit of my dogs (12dogs) but you are a female and you won't.. get along with my wife so here is 50,00 reais (12 dollars) go back to your grandparents house there you have foot, roof and washed clothes

I once asked my grandfather when I came to live here. He said he doesn't remember the day, but I remember the first thing he did was to put me in School close here called Colibri (HummingBird) and I had to take a picture and the photographer asked to smile or something and I had this sweater with a clock on it and I remember my grandfather saying it was my b-day. I never had b-days parties or celebrations. It was holidays and my grandparents already old. My parents were too busy having sex. My mother used to have three jobs. She was a broadcaster at Radio Inconfidência and at noon she presented the news on local tv station Alterosa (SBT). And my dad, let's see my dad couldn't keep a job or his own shit together. Remember I was sued by him for saying what I think about him, so not going furhter on details of his bad habits. But my grandfather took care of me and also sent a monthly food, clean stuff he payed and shop for their house. My mom didn't had time. But him.. let's see..

they never came or took me somewhere. they were always buzy minding their business when he married again he was always w her. He was incapable of taking me for diner or to the movies. or to be just me and him. what an ass*

So that's why b-days are never good, those are some of my memories but living like that I wasn't a winner at school during childhood and even less at my teens so when I turned 30y and finally got my guts to confront him I used to send him messages, emails. He used all to detort and say that I threatened him, poor worker: he is or was a director at Orteng a french company that buys and sells technology to prospect oil in the plataforms on the ocean. He used to travel to Norway, Swisszerland, Sweden, London, Paris, Denmark, Scotland to learn, buy and sell advanced submarines probes even to Petrobras for the least 20 years. He sued me. He is one of the heartless kind.

Nuctemeron - The First Hour

NUCTEMERON • Apollonio of Tiana

The First Hour

A Primeira Hora

Na unidade os demônios entoam louvor a Deus; eles perdem a maldade e a ira.

"O dia de Deus" consiste em doze partes chamadas de "horas". Tentaremos lançar um olhar sobre a Primeira Hora:

Quem desejar trilhar a senda da Gnosis Universal deve começar ingressando nessa primeira hora. Ela relaciona-se com o caminho joanino (relativo a João Batista): a senda que endireita as veredas para o Deus em nós, que é o homem-alma decaído.

Os "demônios", de que aqui se trata, não são as várias espécies de fantasmas que habitam a *esfera refletora, mas sim os demônios presentes em cada ser humano. Sem o menor exagero, pode-se dizer que qualquer ser humano dialético é possuído pelo demônio.

O demoníaco é o mal e o impuro, o pecaminoso no ser humano. O demoníaco é a soma negativa de todas as existências que foram vividas no microcosmo e habitam o subconsciente como um feixe de certas tensões magnéticas.

O microcosmo donser humano contém inúmeras cargas magnéticas heterogêneas, acumuladas por ele em suas intermináveis viagens pela natureza dialética devido a toda a espécie de situações de vida, sentimentos, pensamentos, ações e experiências.

Compreendereis que cada ser humano está sempre ocupado em engendrar novas tensões magnéticas negativas, isto é, ainda latentes. Todas essas tensões, tão diferentes, formam o campo de respiração particular, o campo de vida, a atmosphera na qual, na qualidade de ser humano, respirais.

Talvez já observastes as nuvens passar no ar e, ao fixardes os olhos nelas, vistes em cada nuvem inúmeros rostos, com múltiplas formas. Eles fitam-vos, e seu olhar perde-se à distância; eles mudam de maus para inexpressivos, e neles há algo de mortiço, de irreal. São como sonhos negativos. Assim também podeis fixar os olhos em vosso próprio campo de respiração, no interior de vosso ser aural. Ali, todas as tensões magnéticas nebulosas possuem igualmente cabeças, bem como figuras fantásticas e gigantescas, mais ou menos monstruosas e demoníacas. Assim, pode-se compreender a razão de falarem de demônios as pessoas que podem vê-las no próprio ser. Eles são as imagens das tensões magnéticas que habitam o subconsciente. São as tensões do campo de respiração aural.

Por que se fala de "subconsciente"? Bem, porque também existe ainda outra consciência, a consciência-eu comum. A consciência-eu desenvolve-se com uma soma de todos os princípios de consciência, de todos os átomos que formam vosso sistema. Ela é alimentada diretamente por radiações siderais que chegam até vós de nosso cosmo circundante. As nuvens demoníacas das tensões magnéticas de que acabamos de falar não permanecem apenas em vosso campo de respiração, mas também vos penetram; elas fazem parte dos cinco fluidos anímicos (relacionados à alma) naturais e, por conseguinte, de cada átomo de vosso ser.

Portanto, não existe somente um princípio de vida posotivo no ser humano que lhe permite dizer "eu", mas também há nele uma compulsão subconsciente, uma longa e difícil viagem para os abismos do passado, a multiplicidade de vozes de um princípio de vida negativo, do subconsciente.

É por essa razão que muitos investigadores da psique humana verificaram, em todos os tempos, a existência de dois eus no ser humano: o eu da consciência comum e o eu da subconsciência; o eu da natureza comum e o eu da natureza desarmoniosa e diabólico. É evidente que todos os seres humanos vivem desses dois eus. Em certo momento, eles vivem do eu comum, e considera-se isso normal. No momento seguinte, vivem do subconsciente e são, como se diz, anormais. Nesse caso, são arrastados pelas forças primitivas do passado a ações, pensamentos e sentimentos que o eu normal lastima.

Existem pessoas, muitas pessoas, que são governadas tão fortemente pelas tensões magnéticas desarmoniosas que levam uma vida que mostra mais o aspecto anormal do que o normal. Então elas possuídas pelo demônio; frequentemente elas descem abaixo das normas de vida que sociedade   estabelece; seu sistema nervoso nada pode fazer em contrário.

Essas pessoas são consideradas criminosas. E os que devem julgá-las e condená-las, e os que como massa humana se encontram a seu redor, ainda não estão sob o jugo do próprio subconsciente. Ainda não! Sua natureza subconsciente ainda não vem à tona, mas atrás dos muros de casa, atrás das paredes dos quartos, deixam que seus impulsos tenham livre curso. Dessa maneira eles ainda podem conservar certo equilíbrio, ao passo que na vida pública assumem uma expressão de integridade. Todavia, seu estado é tão sinuoso e tão complicado quanto o dos outros. Essa é a condição de toda a onda de vida humana em manifestação.

Os incontáveis séculos das manifestações dialéticas falam em cada ser como uma série de tensões magnéticas desarmonisas e de problemas não resolvidos. Isso é o pecaminoso nele. E quem diz, como ser humano natural, que não veio do pecado mente. É nessa realidade, nessa medonha realidade, que Apolonio de Tiana se dirige a seus alunos.

Percebeis, assim, que a chamada psicologia moderna não é absolutamente moderna. Ela é uma tentativa de proteger o ser humano, com as verdades dos antigos gnósticos e dos antigos métodos ocultistas, contra seus próprios demônios, sem curá-los verdadeiramente. É a versão moderna do velho e conhecido exorcismo.

Apolonio de Tiana coloca seus alunos diante da mais assustadora verdade dialética: a de que cada ser humano é o produto da totalidade do passado do microcosmo. O passado e o presente emaranham-se em dois eus: o consciente e o subconsciente.

Como deveis conduzir-vos agora diante dessa realidade chocante? Tendes de aceitá-la! Tendes de esforçar-vos para colocar todo esse complexo de tensões magnéticas diante da Gnosis e de sua luz, quando a Primeira Hora do Nuctemeron eleva sua voz. Assim, invocais as radiações consoladoras e curadoras de Belém, na profunda fé de que somente dos montes dessa sublimidade virá vossa salvação. Assim, invocais, em primeiro lugar, as verdadeiras forças curadoras. E uma vez que invocais essas radiações magnéticas, é claro que tendes de viver completamente delas. Deveis - assim diz Apolonio de Tiana - afadigar-vos com toda a vossa seriedade nessas forças para, assim realizar algo.

Desse modo, no aluno que se encontra sobre o tapete, desenvolvem-se cinco processos, ao mesmo tempo, no conscience e no subconsciente.

Em primeiro lugar, a Gnosis submete-vos a um julgamento. Isso significa que a totalidade da vida e do campo de vida, com toda a sua complexidade, são atacadas pelas radiações gnósticas.

Assim, o candidato chega, em segundo lugar, a grande autoconhecimento. O consciente e o subconsciente são confrontados reciprocamente. O aluno descobre as origens das estranhas e divergentes tensões que tão frequentemente governam e estorvam sua vida, e que tantas vezes assumem formas gigantescas.

Desse modo, em terceiro lugar, o candidato vence o autodesprezo. Não é verdade que sois frequentemente possuídos pelo auto-desprezo, pela auto-repreensão? Em muitos momentos não vos considerais secretamente um indivíduo insignificante? Não conheceis e experimentais frequentemente o efeito paralisante que resulta disso? Para vencê-lo, precisais examinar completamente a causa dessa diabólica força paralisante. Examinar essa causa à luz da Gnosis significa, ao mesmo tempo, sua remoção. Após cair nesse auto-desprezo, o candidato fica por muito tempo cercado de grande vácuo, em que nada mais emtra senão grande frialdade. É a solidão da terra de ninguém.

Eis que por que, em quarto lugar, o vácuo do isolamento é rompido pelas radiações gnósticas, e a salvação gnóstica penetra finalmente todas as partes do microcosmo, da personalidade e do campo de respiração. Assim, os focos de uma nova força de vida vão-se formando em todo o campo de respiração. Uma nova esfera magnética começa a expandir-se. Um novo estado de eu começa a formar-se. Esse novo eu é a síntese, a unificação do consciente com o subconsciente. Todas as desarmonias convertem-se em harmonia.

Então, em quinto lugar chega o momento glorioso em que, nessa unificação, as antigas tensões desarmoniosas se dissipam e, na unidade recém-surgida, todos os antigos demônios e diabos entoam louvores ao Pai. Todas as oposições desaparecem e perdem sua antiga ira e maldade.

Desse modo, cada candidato pode endireitar as veredas para o seu deus e torna-se totalmente digno de trilhar a senda da libertação de modo consciente.

Primeiro, o subconsciente deve dissolver-se no consciente, e depois ambos devem fazê-lo na purificação da Gnosis. Essa é a tarefa da Primeira Hora do Nuctemeron de Apolonio de Tiana. Quem começa essa tarefa na primeira hora do seu dia de Deus, não extingue o passado ou o carma, como muitos costumam frisar, porém ele faz o passado tornar-se muito valioso, pois faz dele um tesouro permanente de sabedoria, experiência e força.

As tensões desarmoniosas donpassado, que se agit e revolvem nonser hano, não são causadas, em princípio, por ações e pensamentos terríveis e acontecimentos assustadores em tempos passados, mas referem-se sobretudo a coisas, vivências, problemas e processos que ainda não foram solucionados, que ainda não chegaram a um fim, que ainda não foram concluídos. Por conseguinte, o ser humano encontra-se diante da tarefa que seus antepassados e predecessores não realizaram.

Quando, mediante a vida de autodescoberta do verdadeiro discipulado, deixais a atmosphera gnóstica penetrar todo o vosso ser, endireitais as veredas, armadoscom o conhecimento provindo do tesouro do passado. Então, tudo o que se manifesta como desarmonioso entoará, com tudo o mais, sonoro louvor ao deus em vós. Todo o passado apresenta-se como um benefício no hojo vivente, base de um futuro absolutamente seguro.

Na unidade das forças naturais, com base na alma-espírito, todas as forças da natureza cantam o louvor e a honra de Deus. Elas perder a maldade e a ira.

Madonna is the most powerful free woman

🔥🖤🔥Blue Eyes🔥 All that gossiping saying Madonna spent $5million euros in a house I bet it all for her son not for that Portuguese bitch.. 

He must be feeling the shit with all these gossip all around the world even here in Belo Horizonte is said she is "in love" with him.. 

Madonna is a smart woman who is not in any man's hand. Sorry for the illusion.. I bet Aboubakar was a friend that she invited to be w her.. 

Not everything with her is sexual or she is carried away of her feet by any man.. or woman.. 
She knows exactly what she wants and expects of each situation she always be on control of her own fucking life. 

And that's why people, the crowd, she is the Queen and her fans adore her above everything she taught us to love ourselves first. She is the female empowered herself. She is the Sun herself. 

She have friends and family she doesn't need a dick to be happy 😎She is funny and stuff and people don't respect her the much she really need.. she is the boss she decides what she wants. We mortal applause. 

I bet the house she bought was a great investment if she is sending her son in an exchange program. She can do what the fuck she want. 

Another guess, is the cheapest house of her patrimony so stop making assumptions she can decide and decide again in a blink of the eyes. And that's my friend is the most powerfully free woman in America cause she can decide, choose, buy, sell and direct simply anything. 

Her husband bahahah 🤣😂🤣😂🤣😂 don't be ridiculous she is not that stupid.. She has her fun as in Sex and the City but she is also a huge entrepreneur.. she is not spending time and money on that.. with BoyToys.. I remember he tagged himself as a King on her birthday party.. a king of wich kingdom? With which merit? People have equivocated egos..

*He is not even the most beautiful man that floated around her.. he is  without seasoning he doesn't have the "si ne qua non".. Just because he has another one that looks exactly like him doesn't make him tasteful or spicy .. can make her laugh for a while but what else?


And plus I bet she is working in a movie indeed..

Madonna isn't a dependent of anyone or anything.. never heard her doing drugs or desperate about anything she is the Queen, bitch!

You know what I am? I am a fucking fan. I am leo and I am loyal as fuck. And I have an honest character I don't live of pretend..

I had to switch off those Google feed cause all the News were: Madonna is moving to Portugal to live with boytoy 🤣😂🤣😂I don't believe the hype.

So Mdonna is quitting her movie plans and her career to be on the hands of a boytoy? Hilarious but I don't believe the hype.

The house she bought for $5m is costing already $14m someone is profiting with this story.. it is convenient to Portugal media say that..

Well until she, herself, goes to public to say that all this bullshit is real I laugh and truly don't believe the hype. 😁💩

I don't care if everyone is pressuring her like that Drake story saying that his was charming and all that shit until @madonna #madonna say 

The 4th Hour of Nuctemeron • Apolonio of Tiana

4th Hour of Nuctemeron • Apolonio of Tiana

"On the Fourth Hour, the Soul returns from the visit to the tombs, the moment when the Magic Lanterns are lit in the four corners of the circles, it is the hour of spells and illusions."

"Na Quarta Hora a Alma retorna da visita aos túmulos. É o momento em que as Lanternas Mágicas são acesas nos quatro cantos dos círculos. É a hora dos sortilégios e das ilusões."

O candidato eacapou das três bocarras de Cérbero. Os perigos do medo, do dogmatismo e da idolatria foram neutralizados pelo candidato mediante as três línguas do relâmpago, mediante a força tríplice do caduceu renovado (fogo serpentino dentro da coluna cervical).

Se acompanhastes com atenção até este ponto vossa viagem investigativa, compreendestes que o candidato aos mistério universais deve provar, ao ingressar na quarta hora mágica, se de fato é capaz de seguir como homem autônomo o caminho da grande e mágica autolibertação.

Foi para isso que ele se preparou. Ele satisfez as exigências elementares e desempediu todos os caminhos para a grande viagem. Cérbero, o guardião do portal, Afastou-para o lado. O candidato passa pelos portais pois agora está livre para fazê-lo. Todas as forças libertadoras estão concentradas nele. Agora ele precisa mostrar que uso fará delas.

Suponde que esta seja a vossa situação: estais preparado para a viagem. Vossas roupas estão prontas, e dispondes do dinheiro para realizá-la. Conheceis o alvo da viagem. Em princípio, nada mais poderá atrapalhar-vos o caminho ou opor-vos resistência. No entanto, em vossa viagem pelos mistérios universais, não sereis embalados, transportados e entregues no destino. Ou, falando de maneira romântica, não sereis levados para o alvo como que em asas de anjos com música e cântico de salmos. Não, equipados com todas as possibilidades e forças, vós mesmos tendes de estabelecer a direção passo a passo. Vós mesmos tendes de tomar a decisão no tocante a cada detalhe do plano da viagem. Por conseguinte, as novas faculdades têm de ser utilizadas, testadas, e tendes de aprender a manejá-las na prática. Assim, a viagem inteira dependerá de vossa própria avaliação.

Se possuís cérebro, tendes de utilizá-lo; se possuís coração, tendes de fazê-lo irradiar. Assim, todas as faculdades do estado de alma capaz de libertar a humanidade devem ser colocadas em prática. Essa é a razão pela qual muitas dificuldades no desenvolvimento do candidato somente principiam depois de ele ter passado por Cérbero. São dificuldades que resultam da inexperiência da fase inicial, da fragilidade do novo estado de nascimento. E repetimos: a totalidade da viagem a ser iniciada agora deve basear-se na nova faculdade de avaliação. Ninguém, a não ser vós mesmos, deverá decidir sobre o que deveis fazer ou deixar de fazer na Quarta Hora; vós mesmos tendes de avaliar, tomar a decisão e executá-la. A vós de todos os vossos irmãos e irmãs silencia na Quarta Hora.

É chegado o momento em que as lanternas mágicas de um estado de avaliação autônoma são acesas nos quatro cantos dos círculos. E deveis atentar se a alma, após ter visitado os túmulos, deles regressa de fato. Por túmulos devemos entender aqui a natureza da morte, que, com todas as assim chamadas manifestações de vida, é, em essência, gigantesco cemitério. Nela nada existe que, em realidade, não seja efêmero. A vida da dialética, com todos os aspectos, é uma sepultura terrível.

A Quarta Hora deve agora comprovar, pois, o candidato, que em princípio já está equipado de maneira fundamental para a grande viagem, que já preparou tudo para ela, também já se despediu de fato e no mais amplo sentido da imensa armadilha da dialética.

Essa sepultura é mais complicada do que o candidato possa imaginar à primeira vista. Ela não somente possui os aspectos materiais grosseiros, mas abrange também muitos estados de ser extremamente refinados e cultivados. E quando venceis o que é grosseiro e o mais banal, o refinado, o velado e o seleto atacam-vos. Quem ingressa na Quarta Hora vivencia "a hora dos sortilégios e das ilusões". Justamente então ele precisa urgentemente das "lanternas mágicas nos quatro cantos dos círculos".

Os círculos de que se fala aqui também podem ser indicados como esferas ou círculos de vida. O estado de vida dialético, em sua totalidade, abrange diversas esferas ou círculos de vida em que se manifestam vários estados de ser. Pela expressão "esfera refletora" compreendemos todos esses diferentes círculos de vida e os processos que neles se manifestam.
É claro, pois, que quando o candidato enceta sua viagem e se eleva, por conseguinte, acima da esfera mais grosseira do reino dos mortos, ele deve em seguida atravessar todos os outros círculos da natureza da morte, em vivência consciente e triunfante. Para tanto, ele deve colocar em cada círculo de vida pelo qual almeja passar as quatro lanternas mágicas, para que, na luz quádrupla da avaliação mágica, ele possa eliminar o sortilégio e a ilusão de cada um desses círculos de vida.

Apolonio de Tiana indica aqui, portanto, um processo mencionado em todas as escrituras sagradas da Doutrina Universal de todos os tempos. Pensai, por exemplo, na viagem da Pistis Sophia: em seu retorno para o Décimo Terceiro Éon, ela não pode omitir nenhum círculo de vida. Em cada círculo que ela atravessa, os éons e forças tentam detê-la ou aprisioná-la.

Pensai ma viagem de Dante, em A Divina Comédia. Ao iniciar a angustiante viagem, ao encetar sua viagem pelo inferno, ele encontra-se em uma floresta tenebrosa. Imediatamente precisa apelar para as faculdades de seu próprio estado de ser, e assim se recupera de um ataque de medo:

"Mas depois que cheguei ao pé de uma colina,
Lá onde termina o vale
Que me havia compungido do medo o coração,

Olhei para o alto e vi sua encosta
Vestida já dos raios do planeta
Que reto conduz o homem por todas as vias.

Então aquietou-se um pouco o medo
Que, no lago do coração, me havia durado
Toda a noite, passada com tanto pesar.

E como alguém que ofegante
Emerge do pélago e atinge a praia
Volta-se para a água perigosa e a encara,

Assim meu ânimo, ainda fugindo,
Voltou-se para contemplar de novo o passo
Que pessoa alguma jamais deixara com vida."

E de Jesus, o Senhor, foi nos dito que morreu, foi sepultado, desceu ao reino dos mortos, ressuscitou, ascendeu aos céus ou ingressou em sua  pátria.

Esse é o caminho universal de cada candidato. Por isso é descrita de maneira lógica para nós a Quarta Hora de Nuctemeron, essa viagem pelo inferno, essa marcha através de todos os círculos da natureza dialética.

A seguir, precisamos ainda deter-nos das quatro lanternas mágicas que são colocadas nos quatro cantos de cada círculo a ser ultrapassado. Essas quatro luzes formam naturalmente um quadrado mágico, um tapete, uma base de construção, uma chave absoluta. Conheceis o quadrado mágico universal do tapete da Rosacruz: unidade de grupo, orientação inequívoca, ausência de luta e harmonia em todas as manifestações de vida.

O quadrado mágico da autoavaliação enobrecida, no qual se acha a força para passar por todos os sortilégios e ilusões dos círculos, consiste em:

1. Razão pura
2. Vontade pura
3. Sentimento puro ou coração puro
4. E Ação pura

A avaliação absoluta depende de estardes perfeitamente firmes na Gnosis e orientados para ela sem vacilações. Vossa vontade não deve querer outra coisa que senão o que a Gnosis quer. Vosso coração somente deve amar o que a Gnosis deseja que o coração ame. Vossa vida de ações não deve realizar outra coisa senão o que está em harmonia com a razão, com a vontade e com o coração.

Essas são as quatro luzes da magia que, em cada círculo de vida, em cada passagem, devem envolver o candidato. Sabe-se que forças poderosas se encontram ocultas na razão, na vontade e no coração. Quando, impelidos por essas trêa forças, o ser humano passa à ação, à realização, ele fica ligado aos resultados da ação, que o detém até ele ser capaz de aniquilar novamente a ação e suas consequências. Por isso, compreendereis a necessidade urgente de pôr em prática a magia gnóstica das quatro luzes. O conhecimento e a experiência pertinentes a isso não caem do céu. Eles devem ser conquistados! Eles devem provar se a alma, de fato, em todos os aspectos, regressou da visita aos túmulos.

Por fim, consideremos ainda os sortilégios e as ilusões. São também quatro em número, ordenados em quatro rubricas, como sombras projetadas ou imitações das quatro luzes mágicas.

A primeira imitação é a que aparece frequentemente nos círculos da vida mais sutis da natureza dialética: a mistura da verdade com a mentira, da realidade com a aparência, mediante a qual uma segunda intenção, uma orientação egocêntrica, um desejo proveniente da natureza da morte é envolvido com uma bela linguagem e com vestidura da verdade, a fim de conseguir ser ouvido e realizado.

A segunda imitação é o vemeno dos falsos ensinamentos, o veneno mortal de cobra. A absorção desse veneno por um ser humano, bebendo-o ou injetando-o, faz com que ele fique agrilhoado à natureza da morte.

A terceira imitação é a do amor. O amor, todos os seus aspectos, mesmo no mais refinado, mesmo naquele classificado como desapaixonado, é finito. O que queremos dizer com isso é que um assim chamado relacionamento sentimental na natureza dialética também está voltado para o eu, para a auto-satisfação e a auto-conservação, para a exploração, a relação entre senhor e escravo, a ostentação. É um amor, uma condição sentimental, que nada tem a ver com a natureza do amor, com a esfera de amor da alma.

A quarta imitação é a especulação, a irreflexão, a irracionalidade, a ação espontânea negativa sem fundamento, sem a razão, motivadas por tendências ou influências.

Essas quatro imitações ameaçam cada candidato em sua viagem de alma através dos círculos da natureza da morte. Contudo, se ele souber conservar acesas suas quatro lanternas mágicas e realmente tiver regressado da visita aos túmulos, nada poderá causar-lhe dano.

Amen.

O Vaso Rachado

*⚱O Vaso rachado⚱*

     Uma velha chinesa tinha dois grandes vasos, cada um suspenso na extremidade de uma vara que ela carregava nas costas.
     Um dos vasos era rachado e outro era perfeito. Todos os dias ela ia ao rio buscar água, e ao fim da longa caminhada do rio até a casa o vaso perfeito chegava sempre cheio de água, enquanto o vaso rachado chegava meio vazio. Naturalmente o vaso perfeito tinha muito orgulho  do seu próprio resultado e o pobre vaso rachado tinha vergonha do seu defeito, de conseguir só fazer a metade daquilo que deveria fazer.
     Ao fim de dois anos, refletindo sobre sua própria amarga derrota de ser rachado, durante o caminho para o rio o vaso rachado disse à velha:
" - Tenho vergonha de mim mesmo, porque esta rachadura que tenho faz-me perder metade da água até a sua casa..."
A velha sorriu:
- " Reparaste que lindas flores há ao teu lado do caminho, somente no teu lado?"
Eu sempre soube do teu defeito e portanto plantei sementes de flores na beira da estrada do teu lado. Todos os dias, enquanto voltávamos do rio, tu regava-as.
     Foi assim durante dois anos, pude apanhar belas flores para enfeitar a mesa e alegrar o meu jantar. Se tu não fosses como és, não teria tido aquelas  maravilhas na minha casa."
Cada um de nós tem seu próprio defeito, mas é o defeito que cada um de nós tem, que faz com que nossa convivência seja interessante e gratificante. É preciso aceitar cada um pelo que é, e descobrir o que há de bom nele!
Ame as pessoas com seus defeitos...
*AME apenas AME !*



* ⚱The Cracked Vase *

     A Chinese old woman had two large pots, each hung at the end of a stick she carried on her back.
     One of the vases was cracked and another was perfect. Every day she went to the river to fetch water, and at the end of the long river walk to the house the perfect vessel was always filled with water, while the cracked vessel came half empty. Of course the perfect vessel was very proud of its own result, and the poor cracked vessel was ashamed of its defect, of being able to do only half of what it was supposed to do.
     After two years, reflecting on his own bitter defeat of being cracked, on the way to the river the cracked pot told the old woman:
"I'm ashamed of myself, because this crack I have causes me to lose half the water to your house ..."
The old woman smiled.
"Did you notice that beautiful flowers are on your side of the road, only on your side?"
I always knew of your defect, and so I planted flower seeds on the side of the road on your side. Every day, as we came back from the river, you watered them.
     It was so for two years, I was able to pick beautiful flowers to decorate the table and brighten my dinner. If you were not like you are, I would not have had those wonders in my house. "
Each of us has its own defect, but it is the defect that each one of us has, which makes our living together interesting and rewarding. One must accept each one for what he is, and find out what is good in him!
Love people with their faults ...
* LOVE just LOVE! *